well here we are, a beautiful thursday. work wasn't too bad today. did some admin stuff at the office and tried to hit my business list up. a good friend of mine actually stopped by my mother's yesterday while i was getting something to eat. i hadn't seen him in forever. we went to military school together and continued our friendship after school. so it was good to see him. other than that, I can honestly say it has been the ultimate of very shitty weeks. There's nothing quite like having your heart ripped out, somehow trying to concentrate on learning the recruiting biz, then geting to go to a brigade goat screw at ft. leonardwood. at least i'll be able to play with guns this weekend. as for the heart being ripped out thing, we'll stay away from that topic becuase it's just a tad touchy. although i did relize that, in all actuality shit like this happens, even when you aren't expecting it, so i might as well fuckin deal with it. so life goes on. if fate deems it necessary to see me happy, so be it. so anyways, i'm booking my flight to new mexico on monday. goin to see what seems like the only people that give a fuck about me in life. i'll see if i can retrieve some sanity while i'm there. it should be a good trip. i'll get to relax and not think about a damned thing for a while. it will be good for me. i'll post pics if i don't get too wasted. let's see what else. my father suprised me today. looks like he wants me to live in/ renovate one of the houses he has. so i'll get a lil place of my own soon. and i'm gonna move my piano there too. i'll have the room. so i'll be happy. i'll get to work on the hardwood floors, recarpet, paint. all kinds of shit. it's a shithole now, but i'll make it a sweet place. it's time to switch gears in life i believe.
one thing is for sure at this point.
Number one: I will never get hurt EVER again. I will not let it happen. Period
