well dang its likes 6 in the morning and im up already wit the kids, finally getting them bac to sleep i think i might go lay back down, i had this strange dream last night about my life and when i got woke up this morning i felt like shit like theres something missing, i want to be loved, i have this guy in my life that i really care about, he was my luv, we were together but i think we drifted apart, we dont see eachother and we dont talk much, i luv him i kno i do, but i dont feel it from him anymore, i think my problem is i want to be loved to bad that i dont really know what kind of love i deserve, i want dat feeling of being wanted, but with self esteem issues i dont think im pretty enough to be wanted, everytime i look in the mirror i find a fault with myself and i feel ugly, its not really a feeling of being ugly. i am. maybe im talkin crazy but i jus feel this way and i needed to get it out
