im not very good with words and feelings but i have so many thoughts!
In Feb 2007 i made Club Fantasia shortly after making the lounge i met someone on ct which no names will be mentioned but most of you know....Well for so long i held back feelings that maybe i shouldnt have Im sure we all do it tho...But anyway a short time later him and i started talking and he became my life, I would have done anything for him he was my smile,my best friend I truely can say i felt loved for the very first time in my life,i wanted to give him so much and share so much with him, i wanted my life to end with him holding me.Well unfortunately 2 weeks ago my life changed and he no longer wants to fill the dreams we wanted to share and now i need to find away to move on. When you truly love someone does that love ever go away? Cause i cant seem to stop loving him no matter what i do something reminds me of the time we spent together, he has my heart, the pain i feel everyday,well lets just say if i could bottle and sell my tears id be a rich person,I try so hard to let him go and let him move on but no matter what he is still my ever dream,hope, and smile! I wanted so badly to be the one that made his day,to be the one to make him smile and to be the one he longed to be with, cause that is what he is to me, But now it is time for me to take a step forward and move on, to wish him nothing but happiness in everything he does and to pray he will find someone that can make him as happy as he made me! My life feels so empty and cold, but i know with time i shall heal...i just wonder if i will ever find someone again that can love me like he did! Well anyway enough babbling on today is the day of the new beginning i need to start, the day i say good bye and not turn back,the day i wish him nothing but happiness and true love,the day i take that step forward to a new beginning to all the changes i need to make....Im just so happy that i got the chance to feel what love really is, and he showed me that path....So with that said i will now say good bye to him and wish him the best in the path he takes! Im on my way to a new beginning not an easy start but it all has to begin somewhere! wish me luck!
love Kerry
