I did so well the first week of this Mercury Retrograde! I really thought I'd found a way to circumvent the pain. Oh, I was so very wrong!
Sadness has hit me with both barrels since the first part of the week. Such a deep, overwhelming sadness - over things that do not usually cause me this amount of grief! Probably because I choose not to deal with them, lol. Guess I can't put off working through these issues - I know this is going to get messy, because I really don't want to deal at all!
Sadness accumulated over multiple lifetimes! Grieving over things from the past that can't be changed, but these feelings are bubbling up all over the place. I have to deal with all of this, I know I do. But this burns like fire, this deep pain in my chest! I want to hide away somewhere. I refuse to cry, damn it! I want to curl up into a ball and protect my heart!
It just occurred to me that I might be feeling someone else's pain, that I've opened myself up too much and I've got that lovely empathetic pain coming through loud and clear. Wait! This is a mix of my pain, as well as this other that I haven't identified yet. I still have such trouble identifying who it is sending energy, trying to contact me, who I've opened up to by accident!
I will take some time now to see if I can figure out whose feelings are residing with mine! I suppose I should make this blog only mine to read, but I never know when someone else might be experiencing the same kind of thing. Maybe this would be helpful for a friend to read.
Wish me luck!