So, I have two jobs now. CiCi's Pizza and Denny's. I like both jobs all right, though I find my job at CiCi's tedious and remedial. I'm not sure if they mean the same thing or not, but you get the picture.
Its the worst thing- having these two jobs. It looks as if I m going to have to make a decision that I dont want to make. Which is more important to me? Are either important enought to take precedence over the other? Will I ever know? Perhaps I will know but it will be too late. The biggest question of them all is can I survive the final decision......
I do know that I want to go back to school in the spring, but I dont know how Im going to do that. I'd have to quit one or both of my jobs, but I need the money from both. I got a call from the Burger King on post to go work there for like $6/hour, but I cant do fast food. Talk about tedious. I would miss the interactions with the customers that I have a t Denny's. I guess it really is a whole other world. I feel so much more personable at Denny's than I do at CiCi's. I know what my customers want, what they like, when they need anything. I can tell when their distressed and when they are happy. I can tell when they want to be left alone and when they are starving for company. I miss having more of an interaction with little kids that having them run up to the counter that seperates me form the people and asking me for change for the games. I cant get close to my customers when the counter comes up past my waist. Little kids can hardly be seen unless they stand tip toe. Its terrible. Every one is nice enough to me at work, its just that I feel like maybe I've been pampered for too long. Maybe I'm so used to being in direct one-on-one contact with my customers that I need it to be able to enjoy myself. I havent worked since Saturday and I feel like I am just about to die of boredom. I cant sleep and I'm afraid I'll be rusty when I go back. I miss my friends from work. Lately the only person I've been seeing is Jason.
Now here is where there may be some misunderstandings. There is nothing wrong with being with Jason. I jsut miss all my other friends. Obviously my priorities are a little messed up right now. I havent seen Bekah in I cant even remember how long! I barely talk to Antoinette and Jeremy anymore. I hardly ever hear from Gabby. I feel like I've abandoned everyone for Jason. I cant even think of the last time, before today, my sister and I actually talked. Not "Hey how are you Im off to Jasons," but really talked. I cant believe how much I've missed out on. I know I cant let Jason be the center of my free time. I have to spread it all out among my friends, too, but its hard. I find myself constantly waiting for him to call me. To give me the okay to come over or for him to get home from school so I can go over there. This whole weekend I spent with him, but thats coming to an end too. Im going to start working Saturdays in the middle of the day, so they're out. and I work Fridays prettyu much until 5 at night till 7 in the morning on Saturday. So weekends are shot to seeing him. He's upset about it, but I need the money. He doesnt get that. Not really. I try to explain it, not just to him, but to everybody. I need the money. I cant get by on waitressing forever. Again, though, working these two jobs will have to stop soon. I cant take it much longer.
Well, I think I've ranted enough. I've got a 5 day weekend coming up next week. Hopefully I'll be able to get out to MO to see my old friends. Well, at least one of them. Maybe make some new friends too. On top of that even, perhaps I'll be able to get reaquainted with my mother. We shall see.
Linda K.
