HeatherHottie is smiling and living life...'s blog: "I need TLC"

Well my birthday came and went and Im now 39 years old. I think about that next year ill be 40 years old lol. Then I remember what someone I love told me...that women are like fine wine...we just get better with age. I know there are definitely some things ive gotten much better at :) and some things I cant do as well as I used to. Experience has taught me some things really well its just funny that im not as limber as I used to be to do some of them if you know what I mean. I know that Im way more settled than I used to be and I definitely know what I want out of life.

I toss and I turn....searching for you. I reach over to your side of the bed...and again you're not there. I cry out your name and my voice goes unheard. Why did you leave....my lover, my friend? You used to tell me such wonderful things....professing your undying love for me. But according to you that love did die one day. And when you left...something died in me too. Sometimes I wonder how I'm supposed to go on without you. Your memory haunts me.....always close by. When I think about you being with her....my heart hurts so bad. I gave myself to you......mind, body, and soul....and you threw that away. Like it was just so much trash. Every night I cant sleep any more....there is such an empty feeling within. And....there's that empty space in the bed. Others have tried to take your place....maybe one day I'll meet that special one. Until then....I cry out in the night and my voice goes unheard.

I was sitting here thinking. Thinking about the world we live in. Thinking about how we are celebrating Thanksgiving in 2 days. Thinking about how much food everyone is going to be eating here. Thinking about how in a lot of countries children go hungry every day. Thinking about how many people would love to have the things we take for granted every day. Thinking about how many people don't have family and friends close by to spend the holidays with. Thinking about the men and women that are serving our country in foreign countries. So, this Thursday when you sit down to eat, remember everything that you have to be thankful for and say a prayer for those that aren't as fortunate.

Hello everyone. As the rain dribbles down outside, I sit here and think about my life. Life is a gift that needs to be experienced to the fullest and appreciated every day. It shouldn't be taken for grantedbecause life is too short. I spent too many years not being truly happy and not enjoying myself. Now I'm almost 40 years old and I finally understand that I should make the most of every minute that I have.

I close my eyes and dream. I dream about a handsome,strong man. I dream that he loves me and thinks I'm da bomb! I dream that I never have to be lonely again. I dream that he makes sweet, slow love to me all night long. I dream that he wants to always be with me. I dream that he makes me laugh with his wonderful sense of humor. I dream that he works hard and plays even harder. Is my dream man out there somewhere?