like the garth brooks song says this learning to live again is killing me (yeah right) well getting back to being me, i don't mind being single now it doesn't bother me as bad as i though that it would. I have made some new friends along the way and I'm learning not to be such a drama queen i think and i accually know that is what was draggin me down and that is what people were not liking me all the drama. i don't need it and don't want it, I have a stable job and a new life that is flashing in front of me, like someone once told me shut people out that are drama and i won't have any drama, my problem is i try to take everyone else's problems on to my self and i guess i have to learn how to do that. sometimes I am afraid to be me, cause i'm afraid if people see the real me they will say "oh that is weird or your just strange or nerdy well like my dad always said if people can't like you for you they can kiss your country ass...
it's not easy admitting all of this i have lost a few good friends because of this drama in the past that i caused and fallowed around and i only wish that maybe one day they will forgive me and maybe one day be my friends again, i miss talking to them cause they always inlightend my day and made me feel better , i just wish that i could go back into the past and change things but i know now that is not possible and the only thing left to do is apologize for my actions back then and just pray that maybe they might forgive me one day? I miss my friends
