Yep thats right I fucked up once agian....
you would think I would just give up by now.....
but I actually like him and of course I make yet another mistake
He's the first guy to actually make me smile in SO long that I had forgotten how to be happy.... and thankful for what I have....
He probably hates my guts now and I can't even stand to think of that....
It's pretty bad when I cry because I fucked up something that seemed to be so good...
but I'm the one who messed shit up so I guess I just need to deal with it..... but I don't want to lose him because of this
