boy did I fuck up
I might be telling this as a cautionary tale...maybe just to get it off my chest...closure perhaps...I Dont know..so we'll go with an explination...
I met J a few months ago...she is my neighbors half Sister...and as soon as I saw her my first thought was "I'd do things to that to make larry flynt blush"...then I found out she smoked (one of my deal brakers)...we talked and I realy liked her...but also found she had a guy (I have two deal brakers in potential relationships...thats the other one) so I tried to put her out of my mind...then her and her bro got in an arguement anD sHe stopped comeing around..a month or so later I happEned MOn her profIle and cheered a little bit at getting another chance...so I joined fubar
We talked and stuff and hit it off again...and Imet her Sister S...who I also hit it off with....a really nice girl...cute anD alot of fun....one night I got a bit friSky...nothing extreme...just a bit...and was glad I did t...I like her..was in a good mood when I went to bed...but couldn't sleep...I laid there argueeing in my head over J or S...in the end J won(I think in my meSsed up head I love her...I dont know)..but was still awake trying to figure ot how to tell S
After hours of debate...I finally motivated myself out of bed...was haveing a crap day but finallly told S....pooRLy aparently...she said she was ok with it but it just felt Like she thought I was another prick who choose her sister over her
and that is where I stand...no clue where I stand with either...how it could or will workout..how I want it to...if I can see J as anything besides a reminder of fucking up...no clue...just know its my fault
I imagine both will see this...and I'm sorry for fucking it up...
lets hope it ends better
