I try to remain optimistic and it doesn't work. I try to focus on anything that's positive but it just doesn't work. I don't want to go to work, I don't want to even wake up. I'd like to just stay in the dark and forget about everything. For every one thing positive, seven negative things come at me. I need a break and I can't get it. I'm losing my mind and I feel weak. I've always believe that every bad thing you do comes back to you. I'm trying to think what I've done in the past that's catchin up with me. Everyone has a breaking point and I think I'm close to it.
