Since deciding to take a break from trying to "hook up"
I have been soooo much more relaxed and happier.
The pressure is off.
I have a secret lover in my heart.
He will fulfill all my needs for now.
Probably sounds almost insane
But I have found that my secret lover is everything I need and want.
He treats me with love and respect.
He loves me unconditionally.
He's not jealous.
He just wants me happy.
How could I ask for anything more?
I deserve the best.
I know that now.
I deserve to be happy with myself and with my secret lover.
One day, he will materialize.
I will be here waiting with open arms.
We will be forever lost in each other.
I'm happy with my decision.
Some might not be.
I can't help that.
But being honest and true to myself will override any hard feelings.
I love you secret lover.
I always will.
