I'm a list girl, I live by my lists, my to do's, my shopping, my how to lists. I used to lay in bed with my lists running through my head as I tried to get some sleep. When I would go on vacation I would spend months creating the perfect packing list, where to go list, when to do what list. I would become obsessed with these lists to the point that I would lose lots of sleep over them. Now I am trying very hard to get rid of my lists for me and my kids. I no longer plan every moment of our lives. I would rather live and have fun than be ruled by a stupid list. I would rather my sons look back and say remember that day that mommy let us eat icecream for breakfast, lunch and dinner. I want the man that I am with to enjoy who I am not get angry over my compulsiveness to be ruled by time, and a list. So I'm going camping with my guy, in 21 days! I refuse to make a list, over and over again that is. I will make the what to pack, what to buy and what will I cook list. But no other type of list will I create. I will not make a "Saturday" list with 15 minute intervals, where there is something planned every hour on the hour. I will go camping enjoy myself, and enjoy my time with him as much as I can. If we can put up a tent without fighting we may be perfect together. If we can be in each others company for almost 72 straight hours without becoming bored, or insane with each other, and my need for camping sex does not kill him, we may just work. So I'm no longer a list girl rather a plan and enjoy girl. I promiss Babe I won't make list after list after list and I will just enjoy myself. And if I start to panic over not making a list just tell me I am being weird, but say it in that voice that makes me smile.
