We met at work about 14 years ago. We began to chat and flirt with each other on a daily basis. I knew he was in a relationship but I was young and it didn't seem to bother me . As we continued to flirt we decided to hook up. We had agreed that we were just going to be friends with benefits, and that we didn't want anyone to know about us .
Well as time went on we was hooking up more often and my feelings began to grow even more passionate towards him . I was Falling in Love and I knew he wasn't feeling the same way. But it was still ok because I just wanted to be with him as much as I could.
In the mean time I had also been dating other guy's and he knew about it. At first I don't think it really bothered him . But as the years kept passing he had broken up with his girl and also started seeing other girls . We continued to always come back to each other even if we was with other people at the time . I then realized he did care about me . He was always honest with me about why we could never be a couple. The reason stated from him was I won't ever be able to be Faithful to you. I charish his honesty for what it was .
We as a open couple had something happen that I believe brought our hearts closer to one another but as time passed I met another man that I was sure I was going to be with the rest of my Life. I then let my old love know I really wanted to make things work with my new man and I didn't want to be cheating on him. He understood and stepped back .
During our time apart he had became a father to a beautiful lil girl, who looked just like him. I was so in AWWW because I wished it had been me that he had a child with .Shortly there after I was having problems with my man . I had found out he was cheating on me with someone I knew and was lying about it. He also became mentally and physically abusive to me. Again, I Called apon My OLD LOVE.. With open arms and heart he excepted me back in his life even tho he was with his babies mom. I think he knew I could never stay away from him. Shortly after I left everything and moved back to my home town. I stayed in touch with my old love and every once in a while we would hook up.
We again was apart for a very long time , only speaking to one another via e-mail. During this time he had became a father once more. I was
Devestated . My heart ached with disbelief. Again wishing it would have been me. I Love this man with all my heart and I believe he feels much love for me. We Still talk today and get together on a rare occasion,but we can never fully be together.. I Love you now and forever!! If he reads this , He knows who I am talking about !
