i give you my heart
but you threw it in my face
i gave you my all
but you threw that at me too
you promised you'd be there
promised you'd never need to take a break
i told you not to make promises you couldn't keep
you of all people shouldknow how it feels to be lied to
i fully trusted you
trusted you with my heart and soul
nowisit here crying
not knowingwhether we'll be together or not
i let my walls comedown
i let you in my heart
butyou almost don't seem to care
i can'teat
i can't sleep
my mind is fully of thoughts
thoughts of what's going to happen next
i can't think straight
i can't walk straight
i have visions of us breaking up
replaying over and over in my head
is it worth the pain?
is it worth the suffereing?
are you worth all ofthe emotions running through me right now?
before i met you
my life had hardly any meaning to it
i hoped and prayed that god would send me somsone
someonewho could mend my broken heart
and make the pain go away
all of the guys before you
bruised and battered me
i almost thought it impossible to love again
but then i found that one person
who couldmake the wrong things right
turn my frown upside down
make me feel whole again
like i had a purpose in my life
i found someone unlike all the rest
a straight up diamond in the rough
i wish i could showyou all of my gratitude
that i feel towards you
for opening a door for me from thin air
you showed me a diferent side of me
for the first time in 6 months
i felt happy
i smiled
and that smile had a purpose
and a true meaning behind it
and eventually i started oepning my heart once again
i had let my walls come down
to let in
a complete
and total
stranger
but now i'm not so sure you loove me the way you used to
we used to laugh non stop for hours
now most of the time we're fighting
usually over little petty stuff
i don't know what i would have donewithout you
during the past 9-10 months
sometimes i feel you don'y care about me
like all you really care about it how i look
though i know that's not true
at leasti hope that it is not
i always end up upsetting you some how though
and you do the same to me
i hope this reacher you in time
so to help us patch things up
i want to talk to you openly
but i fear that i will disturb your peace
i feel the end is near
i'm nearing my last few lines
that i am permitted to write
anymore will end me worse than i am now
so says the voices in my head
they tell me, "lie down, get some rest, tomorrow will come soon enough."
so shall i obey them
for i fear their wrath upon me if i disobey their orders
i shall also announce my leave
to you my love
may i be permitted to trust thee again?
once again trust you with my heart and soul as before
may i be permitted to trust the again?
(i know, i've been reading too much rennasance).
