Feb 3, 2008 11:35 AM
I have manic depressive disorder
I have mood swings at the most unapporpriate times, about things that really bother just me. I have been suffering from the lost of my father for almost 10 years now, and it feels as if it were yesterday that I lost him. I am a seasonal manic depressionist. It generally starts late December and runs through early April. I feel that my world falls apart and I don't want to function, I can't function, I try hard to be an active member to those who love me and the world around me.... and most of the time it just slams in the face. I hold on to the memories of all the good and stuff... the moments leading up to my father's diagnosis of Non-Hodgkins Lymphoma High Grade to his death, that is when I started to fall apart at the seams. There were other things that I refuse to write about it, those will always remain in me as a personal hell. Only a few people know what these other things are... I love you Andrew and Irene for the love and the respect of being there for me and understanding and loving me no matter what. Well, just wanted to let off a few issues of my chest. I don't anyone feeling sorry for me, or doubting my love for those that have passed .. me and are in my life now. Til I can get my thoughts together again.... love to you all! XOXOXO
