PoSTaL MuSe's blog: "PoStal ~vents~"

Crazy....

I am, or am I??

I have these...well "premonisions" I don't really know what to call them..but they are there and I've been listening and acting upon them lately proving them to be true. 

I blocked them for years and years with alcohol and hard drugs...maybe even my beloved marijuana...anyway, since I've become sober the "thoughts" have been coming back and I've been ignoring them...until lately.

Last couple of weeks have been a total trip...and I'm riding it out.  Today was totally draining and confusing and enlightening all in one.

yes, I'm crazy

but yet...I seem to be sane.

I'm surrounding myself with people that have the same thing...it's odd to have confirmation.

I don't know why I'm telling fu about this...except that perhaps there is more of "us" that I need to learn from.

Is it strange that I knew my mom used hers for the wrong purposes and didn't know "for sure" until another told me this evening??

Do all of us need confirmation because society has told us we are insane and that it's not possible?

If I open myself up again will I become a complete mess?

I should learn the tools....

I will.

5 days left of my "real job"

night

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