I cant take it any more. He wins. I'll be switching churches. I cant ask him to leave there, so I'll leave myself.
From here down is yesterday's news.
Do di do. Off my rant and such. Saturday went relativly well, with the exception that we didnt make finals or anything. The guard and band did wonderful, everyone from my band had fun. There was no wind, no rain, no unbearable hot or cold. I got to listen to little kids behind me say they liked "Hothorn Hearts?" and listened to them all the time. I think this is because I was wearing a slightly (yes I know I'm labeling, get over it) emo outfit. They were little kids, like...maybe 8th grade? Not sure. I left them alone and took my frito chilie pie elsewhere. Teena and David didnt make it to finals either. Hey, at least they got a 1 at reigonals. We got 2s. Bah. The year was a fun one and no one was incredibly depressed that we got absolutly nothing.
Yesterday was the Fellowship Meal at church. I was tired. Sis and I stayed and ate and socialized and such and I got a small ego boost from Crash. He learned about my low self esteem last week and told me about a text message he was going to send me. It was something about him not getting it or whatever. He said he could understand if I were ugly or something, but that I'm not and it doesnt make sense. I didnt tell him the reason I have problems with that. I havent actually told anyone about it (aside from Mrs. Sandlin). All I know is that I felt completly worthless for a long time due to some stuffs and junk that happened a long time ago. V and Teena are the only ones I have ever wanted to tell, and I havent got close enough in my own mind to do so. Ok. Moving on.
V came over last night and we watched a movie. V for Vendetta. I love that movie! I think that some time I'm going to have him burn a copy for me or something. It was absolutly wonderful. I think I'll find a way to watch it again on the *gasp* 5th of November! Oh, yes. Happy Feet comes to theaters on November 17th. I must see it!! Penguins! Dancing, sexy, happy, singing PENGUINS! Just like me! Umm...Yeah...Also...something happened. Something strange. After he left, I was humming. This isnt uncommon now, but the song...the song most definatly was. Gildor, you know this song, or at least you did a long time ago. The begining asks a question. "How do you explain, how do you describe, a love that goes from east to west, and runs as deep as it is wide?" I have only sung/hummed that song once outside a church setting. I wrote V a letter last night and I hope he found it today. I hope nothing goes terribly wrong....I hope I hope I hope.
Well, I need to work on photoshop projects, lest someone accuse me of trying to shoot everyone. *gasp* I must tell you about the newest rules here at Tech. Due to the recent shootings and violence at schools across the country, GCTC is going on temporary lockdown. The doors are to remain locked durring class hours. Students are not to leave the room for any reason, unless it be break time. I have to pee, and I dont think Mrs. R is gonna let me out! Damn. This sucks. Now I'm going to work on photoshop. Love to all!
