I give up. For about two months, all of a sudden nobody really wants to talk to me anymore. The strangest thing was the 3 people I was closest to (online) all just stopped talking to me at the same time. Only one of them as given me any kind of reason, the other two won't respond to emails or anything :( I don't even know what I did.
It really sucks when people say such wonderful things about you, and then one day you're just a stranger to them. They act like they really care about you and then they treat you like we're back in Junior High and you're not cool enough for them to even say one word to you.
I mean wow......I think if I dropped off of the face of the planet right now, nobody would even notice. These days I am so lonely.
I've totally given up on EVER having a girlfriend again. How in the hell is it possible anymore? Women always have their pick of the litter and there is always going to be someone they want more then me. Couple that with my self respect of not letting myself be played or lied to and the chances are pretty slim I'll ever know what it's like again, to feel loved or special to anyone. There must be something seriously wrong with me and I just don't see it, and nobody is a friend enough to step up and tell me.
I have no motivation anymore for anything. Whatever hopes and dreams I had, there's just no point anymore. Whenever I use my brain to help someone else it works flawlessly. Whenever I use my brain to help myself it always fails no matter how hard I try. Obviously I'm not meant to have anything go right. It's like some super natural force is making sure I can never succeed past a certain level with anything. After 32 years of that, the writing is pretty much on the wall.
So, right now I feel like a cursed loser that nobody wants to know.
So I give up
