As far back as I can remember I have always tried to do whats best for my family.
I learned how to use spices to make my food taste better. I watch cooking shows and try and make some of the meals. So that it wouldnt be the same ole borring shit week after week.
I do things that they ask of me like making phone calls, setting up appointents, listening to them and giving them my oppion. I am alway there for them.
But when I need them to listen to me and understand it seems to go over their heads.
For example: We are on a budget and usually close to pay day our food is almost non existant. I tell them plz dont eat all of this or that other wise I wont have enough for your lunches.
They dont listen and I dont have much to put in their lunchs and it makes me feel bad.
My boys dont consider all that I do in the home a job. They are under the impression I sit on my ass all day and do zip.
And the worst of it all, I am the bitch and their father is like gawd to them. Even thou its me they come to when they need something, as I said I am always there for them. And yet I feel so dam invisable and un wanted.
My hubby and I got into a big ass knucle draggin fight this morning over mis communication on his part. And my hubby lost his temper and well it wasnt nice.
My oldest of course put all the blame on me ..like thats a surprize NOT!! and told me when I go vist my friend in pittsburgh not to come back. How nice huh.
We are struggling for food and my son has more then enough in his acct to help out and yet now has decided not to.
Seems no matter what I do its never enough or good enough. I feel like a complete failure to this family and I stuggle as to what to do.
Im just in tears and sick over this mess with no direction
