I Just Don't Know Why
I stand here alone surrounded in darkness, confused and disoriented unsure of which way to turn. I don't know why. Left deserted, hollow, and broken unsure of why my eyes have filled with tears. I don't know why. I do know it means something. I just don't know what. I see a little book here at my feet. It is familiar but foreign just the same. I just don't know why. These words I have heard before. I read the pages and I see me. I just don't know why. As I read, a movie appears before my eyes, I have the leading role. I just don't know why. I cannot help but to be mesmerized unable to turn away. I just don't know why. These are my words. I can hear myself saying them and it's I that I see struggling for air. I just don't know why. One simply little breath I see myself pray for there in the grip of the beast I lay. I just don't know why. That's him the beast. He's what has consumed my sleepless nights and tormented my days. I just don't know why. He is real, he does exist, and there I am. That toy. The one he's kicking with his feet. I just don't know why. Why are my eyes flowing with tears? Why is there blood seeping from my body to the floor? Why am I speaking those words to the beast? Why? I don't understand. I just don't know why. Why didn't I run? Why did I stay? Why by his side do I lay? I don't know why. The movie is finished now and the darkness has returned again. I just don't know why. I don't like this darkness. It's scaring me. I'm really becoming frightened. I just don't know why.. Colder and colder the air is turning. It's getting so cold. I don't know why. I don't feel very well. I think the coldness is hurting me. I just don't know why. I don't like the coldness here. I just don't know why. Did I stay? I must have stayed there with the beast, right at his side until the end! This I do know, I just don't know why. It's all dark again and it's cold. Yes, I must of stayed. I just don't know why. It is all clear to me now. I must have died on that day. I just don't know why. BY MIZZ SHADY |