Why does he have to be so mean to me at times? I love him with every thing I have but yet he still has to be so mean and cocky. I try so hard to be what he wants and needs. AND sometimes I just feel like he would rather not be here. Sometimes I can see the distance in his eyes as if he's a million miles away. As if he's thinking about someone else and wishing he was there instead of here. I just don't know anymore. I know he'll say thats it not me, he just has alot on his mind, but it doesn't change the fact that he makes me feel that way.
yeah so we get into a little tiff today over the cell phone bill, he mentioned about the number of text messages that i had going out. So I mentioned the number he had going out but my bad was that i misread it. He sorta gives me attitude about me misreading it and said that I yelled at him. Which btw I didn't. So I said hmm thats funny i don't recall yelling at you. He's like okay you BARKED at me. Yea i was pissed well more like hurt at the way he said what he said. So i didn't talk to him. He asked me what was wrong and I told him nothing. He didn't say anything to me at all. He went to bed (he works tonight) didn't kiss me or anything. So how am I supposed to take that? So tonight when he gets up. He'll be all distant and shit. Probably refuse the coffee that I make for him and again won't say a word to me. So I guess we'll just have to wait and see what happens. Maybe it won't work out that way. Who knows!
