TheFox's blog: "I Did This For Her"

I remember you I hope this message finds you well I have been making Amends for my sins and you were on the top of my list. So here it is I am sorry for the things I do for this mortal coil is much too much to bear and ascension is required for this change to take its rightful place, love and broken dreams all I ever had now the Weapon is in my hand barrel smoking, tears in my eyes, Did I do it for my country or to fulfill some sick and twisted dream. Shell casings rain down and hit the floor playing and sad, sad symphony, I come to realization that you were always there right in front of me the whole time, there to wipe the tears from my eyes clean the blood off my hands and assure me of your love. But now I am the one standing in front of all of you weapon aimed, smoking barrel, tears in my eyes, it took so many years just to realize, You were always there now your gone and I have fallen past the point of redemption in this world of lovely lies I'll bring forth all that I have left and give it to the skies if only to here your voice one last time with forgiveness in your eyes

They told me that life wasn't fair They told me that the house always wins They told me I couldn't grow my hair And they told me I wouldn't score with twins Now that you are smiling let me wipe that off your face Let me remind you of who are, In this place I wanted to be with you til the end of my life I wanted you to bear my son You are the one I was to call wife But now I watch, my heart fills with rage You are with another man, This finally sets the stage I always thought that you would be the one To free me from this cage I was wrong and now my tears stain this page What I must do pains me in this deadened heart " I love you and It's tearing me apart" But alas no love will come for me Thus is the life of a prodigy For this One sold his soul so long ago To accomplish his purpose, and change the world Now everything is set in stone It's crystal clear and everything is shown People have to suffer to see this through People have to die to try and stay on top This changes now for I have nothing left to lose Death is your eventuality, All of you must choose How will your life be remembered it matters not to me For I will start this tale and leave you with my Legacy.....

I got to sit here realizing this I found this to be something I'll miss I've tried to teach them oh so much But I've experienced something new and fresh I saw an Angel there with the softest touch I saw her and she saw me She has heard about an everlasting prodigy She said it would all be over soon She told me I had failed and all was doomed I asked her how this could've happened to me The Angel filled my head with lies and said it's not my destiny With blade unsheathed I raised my hands "Not a force on earth can change these plans!" A moment later the deed was done In a rush of emotion that could extinguish the sun "My Angel is dead, my Angel is dead!" Now nothing will stop the voices ringing in my head She was the one that should've understood But her eyes were shut, she didn't listen, she never would What is the cost of this prodigy Because now my Angel is lost to me With tears in my eyes screaming "What's the price, what is the price!" I've lost my way with a heart as cold as ice I've filled myself with rage Why cant i free them from this fucking cage I sit down a rest for just a while With blood on my hands trying to face my denial My breathing slow, my tears have stopped, the blood has dried I know my cause is just yet so many have died I sheath my blade and dress my coat and I laugh to myself "At least i tried"........

I DID THIS FOR HER Current mood: depressed Category: Romance and Relationships I see now the error of the ways i have chosen these days So much darkness and hate in my life feel like i am running a maze But i saw the reflection of myself and i realize i am the one who pays I burned this place in a rush of emotion thats controlled my very soul I walked atop the ashes of the place i once called home I look all around me and in the end i am all alone It all makes sense now i am no king i have no throne I miss my mother i miss my friends I miss them now i missed them then I see i have destroyed my world and walked that path One of destruction, One of pain but not my pain The pain of others that i inflicted directly no middle man I wanted vengance for the pain I felt that was the plan But now i have been a victim of my own prodigy Was she just a dream, Did she really care She is an Angel with beautiful brownish blonde hair I can't remember it has been so long Did i write her a poem Did i sing her a song I don't know i know i did all of this to win her heart But i walked my path that was doomed from the start I love her still to this day, always will nothing will change What is this feeling so good, yet still so strange Will she come back one day, I will wait and see But always and forever she will be My everything My everlasting My prodigy.......