Over 16,514,206 people are on fubar.
What are you waiting for?

will you

Will you catch me if i fall..

Will my heart ache even heal?

Tell me what i need to feel?

 

 

Theres nothing to miss if i keep it locked inside.

i will pretend that its alright tonight

I will keep my pride

and let you go

I have had a ruff past year.Its been hard on me with medical conditions and relationship problems..When i was out today i realized that i dont have it as bad as i thought i did..There was this guy with his son and he was a tiny baby he was three months i asked the guy his sons name and he told me in a studder...which i do to..he said aaadden i was so surprised that i had meet someone who studdered like me and stuggles as well as i do..I thought to my self its amazing that he was so willing to talk to me..i dont even like talking at times bc i know that im going to studder...I have more cat scans and mri's coming up and theres a possabilty of other things which only one person on here knows of..I'm not explaining it all...I just felt the need to vent a few things...But hey you know i cant complain at all...i have some great friends that stick by me..and i thank the lord for everyday that i wake up..for everyday i see the sun set..for everyday i can feel my heart beat and thats the best feeling that i can feel within myself..i ve noticed that i have to start reading between the lines that i need to step back and check things before i fall into them.I have had my heartaches and i know that its hard to love agian but maybe if i get this miricale it will show me that i can love agian..and that i know i can be strong even when i feel weak..I have fought this long battle with my brain for a year now sometimes i feel like giving up and knowing that i feel like i can tmake it anymore hurts me more than anything..i used to be so strong and i wouldnt ever let anything hurt me or bring me down but you know its getting harder..like i have no where left to hide NO ONE TO RUN TO...NO ONES SHOULDER TO LAY ON AND JUST LET OUT MY TEARS..Its hard when your family is fighting over you and the last little possesions that you have in your life..iI just wonder if they would fight about my little miricale like that if it was to happen...I know that i am going to die..i dont know when..nor do i want to know...I just wanted to get all this out......

last post
14 years ago
posts
2
views
964
can view
everyone
can comment
everyone
atom/rss
official fubar blogs
 8 years ago
fubar news by babyjesus  
 13 years ago
fubar.com ideas! by babyjesus  
 10 years ago
fubar'd Official Wishli... by SCRAPPER  
 10 years ago
Word of Esix by esixfiddy  

discover blogs on fubar

blog.php' rendered in 0.05 seconds on machine '7'.