Annelid's blog: "Ramblings,thoughts and assorted stuff"

I can't sleep. I can't string together a cogent sentence. I can't obtain suitable f/t employment. I can't dream. I can't understand what happened to me. I have a ripping headache. I used to have such dreams and aspirations. I used to daydream. I want to be loved. I crave knowledge. I crave understanding. I am a empty shell. I walk around in a daze. I sleep in spurts. I think I'm going insane. Or maybe I already am.And I believe all this is happening to me. Or maybe,just maybe I'm in a deep dream or nightmare,waiting to be awoken. In any event, it's pointless. Who really cares? I wish did,but to be honest I don't. This is what it is. Am I comfortable with it,no. But there's no changes to be made. It is what it is. so be it.