“I CAN’T KEEP DOING THIS TO MYSELF”
I CANT KEEP DOIN THIS TO MYSELF,
I'M LIVIN A LIE
I SAY I DONT CARE MOST OF THE TIME,
I MIGHT SOUND HAPPY
BUT
I'M NOT,
I HURT AND CRY ON THE INSIDE,
AND DONT SHOW IT ON THE OUTSIDE CUZ IT HURTS TOO BAD,
BUT
I DONT KNOW WHAT TO DO ABOUT THIS
CUZ THE MAN I LOVED DONT WANT TO BE WIT ME
I DONT REALLY CARE
BUT
AT THE SAME TIME I DO
BECAUSE
IT KILLS ME ON THE INSIDE TO KNOW THAT HE AINT
HERE BY MY SIDE
HE TOLD ME THAT HE WOULD NEVER BREAK MY HEART
BUT
HE DID
HE HURT ME SO BAD
I JUST DONT WANT TO BE ALONE ANYMORE
SOMTIMES I THINK ABOUT WHAT IF I WASN’T HERE NO MORE
I THINK ABOUT IT MORE AND MORE EVERYDAY BECAUSE HE AINT HERE ANYMORE,
I JUST DONT KNOW WHAT TO DO
HE TOLD ME THAT HE CARES AND HES SORRY FOR HURTIN ME,
BUT
I SAY THAT IF HE WAS REALLY SORRY HE WOULD BE HERE RIGHT NOW
I GET SAD EVERYTIME I LOOK AT HIS PICTURE
AND I DONT KNOW WHY BECAUSE HE HURT ME
BUT I CANT HELP IT
WHAT WOULD YOU DO IF YOU DID ANY AND EVERYTHING FOR SOMEONE
THAT THEY ASKED YOU TO DO
EVEN IF IT WAS THE SIMPLEST SHIT
BUT
YOU DID IT JUST CUZ YOU LIKED HIM THAT MUCH
AND THAT PERSON TOOK YOUR KINDNESS FOR WEAKNESS
HOW WOULD YOU FELL IF THAT PERSON TOLD YOU THAT THEY
LIKED YOU A HELL OF ALOT,
AND
THEN JUST TOOK YOUR HEART AND BROKE IT INTO A MILLION PIECES,
AND STEPED ON IT?
I JUST DONT KNOW WHAT TO DO ANYMORE WITHOUT HIM BY MY SIDE
I HAVE NEVER LOVED ANOTHER AS MUCH AS I LOVED HIM
AND I PROBLRY NEVER WILL
AND I WILL NEVER BE HAPPY TILL I'M WITH HIM AGAIN
BUT THIS IS THE WAY I FEEL ABOUT HIM
BUT I KNOW HE DOESN’T LIKES ME ANYMORE,
BECAUSE HE ALWAYS SAYS,
YES,
NO,
KINDA,
MAYBE,
I DONT KNOW,
ABOUT GETTIN BACK TOGETHER WITH ME,
AND
I AM TIRED OF MY LIFE
AND
THE WAY THINGS ARE GOING,
NOTHIN GOES THE WAY I NEED OR WANT THEM TO GO,
BUT
THEN AGAIN WHOS LIFE DOES?
I LOVE HIM AND ALWAYS WILL,
I WILL BE HERE WAITIN FOR HIM TO
JUMP OUT OF MYCLOSET
AND SURPRIZE ME,
GO TO WORK WITH ME,
SLEEP WITH ME,
SPEND EVERY MINUTE OF EVERY DAY WITH ME,
LIKE HE USED TO,
BUT I DONT THINK THAT WILL EVER HAPPEN AGAIN
SO I GUESS I'M GONNA HAVE TO MOVE ON,
EVEN THOUGH I DONT WANT TOO!!!!!
