It's broutle when you think your pregnate, but your not for sure. Yeah, your stomachs growing, but you think it's just because your getting fat. Your not ready for a child. Your not ready to bring a baby in the world when you was ready to take yourself out. . . .
The baby's going to be a bastard, because the father was a prick and decided to leave. It hurts so bad, becuase you grew up without a father and you remember the life you lived. . . . .Always thinkin' it was your fault that he left. No matter how much your mother told you it wasn't.
But this time it's really not the kids fault why the daddy left. The daddy left because you cought him in lies, cheating on his girlfriend with you. { Last bulliten I posted explains that. } The baby's dad doesn't even know, but your scared to tell him. Scared that he will just walk away and not want anything to do with him Or he will deny the kid even though you know it's his, because he's the only man you've been with.
It's going to be a killer bringing the baby in to the world at such a young age. There goes all my dreams, there goes all my hopes for my future, but I can't blame it on the baby. I can't become one of those partents who hate their kids, because they 'runiond' theiir life. I just got to make new plans, or hold off on my old plans, but I can't be worrying about that, because i'll have a baby I have to take care of. Get a nickle and dime job, go back to school to make a life for them.
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I don't even know if I am pregnate, but everyone I know say's I am, because I'm getting fat. . . ALREADY. . . . I say I'm just getting fat just because. They say O.K keep saying that to yourself. At one end I want a baby, but at the other I don't because I'm not ready. And like I said I wanted to get my music and stuff inline to before I go having any kids. Oh, man. I'm so not ready for this. I shouldn't even be freaking out right because I don't know for sure if I am Right?????? Yes?????? Grrrr..... .I'm going to be grey before this kid even gets to 4 months in the belly......lol
