I just found out how unattainable I am today(because this is my choice does not mean it is wrong) ,I had 3 conversations today (with guys who i adore deeply)and found out I personally SUCK! (not in my eyes)omg how can you guys put up with a girl like me(WHO knowes what she is and choeses never hides how she feels) .I sensor your thoughts toward me(keep you in mind that we are just friends and we agreed on this) say you are not allowed to discuss subjects(like my sex life or religion if i don't want to or chose too) or ask certain questions(like, Can i have a nude pic because we a re friends ?) .God ,how am I too be a good friend(as i am with you now) when I cant even let you talk to me the way you want too(by crossing a line that we agreed on) .I give(frustrated) I will never tell any one they cant say what they feel toward me(i chose to keep my mouth shut till I cant hold it in any more) .I don't care how mean ,nasty ,perverted just say it(if you valued our friendship you wont cross the line) I don't care what conversation we have I will never tell you no to it( because i just give up and don't want too fight any more).I don't care what you want from me because if I was a friend I would give( I give my friends 100% why do you need more) .So here I am I am so attainable that it is a sin(you lied when you cross the line ,lying is a sin) .Come take what you want OK .I don't care any more.(so you want too lose me go ahead that just means you never was a real friend)
So come get my mind ,my heart my soul ,my body and what ever else you want(if you deserved them i chose to gave them to you already you just did not care to see it) you all win(you are free from me not to be a friend again till you apologies) .CONGRATULATIONS!