Apparently I am a douche bag. I am not meant to walk around and have thoughts or feelings. I am not meant to be human and have flaws. I am not the perfect person you want me to be. I never will be. Save yourselves from me and my amazing ability to destroy anything that has ever meant anything to me. Watch in amazement as I sabotage everything I ever have going for me.
I am obviously meant to be alone for the rest of my pathetic existence. Go ahead, everyone, pass me by, please. I want you all to do the favor and walk right by me. Don't smile, nod or even wave, cause apparently that gives me the perfect opportunity to destroy even the calmest of friendships.
I am self-destructive when it comes to all things(minus the physical cutting shit). Welcome to my life, please leave before you get hurt. I am tired of always being the one who "causes the pain". I am forgetful, self-reliant(to a unhealthy point), and apparently self-centered. All I have wanted to do was help people, but all I ever do in actuality is fuck it all up. So do yourselves a favor and run the hell away when you see me.
I don't want to cause pain anymore...
