here I am again... I've made mistakes in my past, but within the past 48 hrs, I've really screwed my life up beyond control... I can't retake my position on what I want... I did something I didn't know would backfire. But due to the fact, I have just signed up to be contacted by another Air Force recruiter and I AM going back, I am going to fight the wars for my country... what best way to show those I love and care for them than that? I'm going to be getting contacted by a recruiter and the first chance I get, I am going.... I made a bad judgement and due to the fact that the person I care about doesn't believe me, I have to show everyone, I'm not that bad of a guy... I HAVE TO JOIN OUR BROTHERS AND SISTERS OVER THERE!!!! I am sorry to those who are against this, and I hope certain ppl don't know my intentiosn, but I can't sit here and be alone and be screwed, I'd rather be over there fighting for a reason than be stuck here and get screwed over by someone who doesn't know what being treated good means compared to all the guys in this whole world... I AM sorry for her though, that she doesn't realize what true feelings and true care is, but who knows, maybe sometimes ppl realize what they had, after they lost it and can't make up for it..... but as of the date my recruiter tells me I'm going, I'M GONE.... just wsh I could have been with her once more............... but that's my luck and I hope my luck is better over there, I appreciate all those who care about us, once I get over there, that is... I know I'm going, with my abilities and skills, then u'd know.... I've already been through this before so I know... God Bless all and I'll miss those who I know who care... as with everyone... take care and the last thing I ask, don't judge. Just care about each other.. Everyone deserves possibly atleast a 3rd chance, atleast I did, but thus far, never got it, but hopefully before I go, I hope I do, God help me I do, this ex/pre-soldier, that's my last wish... before I go over... but who knows, maybe things happen prior and I'll get with her, maybe I won't.... maybe my love with go towards the USA and fight my life for single individual in the world... let this be a passage from my nephew in the Army National Guard..... (I have to aleast go and fight with him, I can't let family fight alone) :
To everybody back home,
Back home now I know you're prob'ly sleeping,
But over here it's the middle of the day.
I finally found some time to write a letter,
Sittin' here a half a world away.
I heard about all them folks protesting,
As if I really want this war.
But that don't stop me believing,
There're just some things worth fighting for.
And if I die before you wake,
I pray the world will take
A good look at what God's given us.
If we could only understand
Everything is in HIS hands.
All we nee is a little faith and trust.
I want you to know it ain't too high a price to pay
If I die before you wake....
Tell everybody that I miss them,
and I can't wait to get back home.
Until then, I'll serve my country
and be proud to wear this uniform.
And if I die before you wake,
I pray the world will take
A good look at what God's given us.
If we could only understand
Everything is in HIS hands.
All we nee is a little faith and trust.
I want you to know it ain't too high a price to pay
If I die before you wake....
No ain'tI too high a price to pay
If I die before you wake....
