Sahib of Flesh of the Covenant of Shadows's blog: "How to deal"

Its very hard for me at the moment. I dont feel good and i am very tired. So i am not here most of the time. At the moment my life is gray again. I am tired of fighting and i rather be at sleep. This is why i dont hang out on people's profiles at the moment. I am empty, dry and have no taste of whatsoever for life. Depression is a evil disease it transforms you in a catatonic asshole, and i seem to hurt people with my behaviour. Mayve the looney bin is a good alternative for me.

Well you all know something about me. I gonna tell a little bit agin about my past present and future. I am born in a little village. Very small everybody knows each other. My father was known as a very crazy person. He did do outreagous things. Those things i saw when i noticed how my father treated my mum. He chased her wit h an axe and he strangled her before my eyes. He never succeeded in that because my mum still lives. At a certain point in my life i decided to stand in the middle of these things. Bad mistake. Soon i was target and it devastated me good. Now i am 37/38 i dont know anymore. I am divorced, i have no job anymore, i am depressed, i am damaged goods. For people that want to be close to me, you have never to forget that other people welbeing is more important to me. Because i am everybodys friend i cause grieve. NEVER FORGET THAT. Ber sure to befriend me or stay friends with me. I am also sexually abused by males when i was young. Because i was so feminent in my behaviour. I understand that now. I want to say as well that i am transsexual. That means i am a man but in mind i am female. The people who not can handle that remove me plz. Its always nice to know something about the person. I am very open. If you like to grieve me for that be my guest. Why all this stuff. Well then you know i am a very troubled mind. I am not lucky in life. I have a outreagous debt so i am not rich. My health is not good also. I have problems to take care for myself. THIS IS NOT DRAMA, only to tell something about ME and Me alone.

Hello all, I shall introduce myself, i am gerrit (garret) and i am living in the netherlands. I am 37 years old and i have an bit off an disease (bipolar disorder). I became depressed after an takeover by another company, they tryed to sack me first. Two days before christmas two years ago i had to defend my work. I won because the attorney of the old company backed off because they had some imperfections in their case. I recieved an log from an friend where my old boss told him that he wanted to blow of the 300 million euro deal because he had to pay 100.000 euro for me and another one. He said that he wanted to blow off the deal because he thinked i was less worth than an dime. I got to work in an new work enviroment and their they start to harrass me because i was not wanted, i became even more depressed. The next year was an bit better, but something went again wrong. Because my depression my wife could not longer cope with the situation and wanted an divorce, i agreed but not with much enthusiasm. I fell even deeper and now i am here. I try to cope but is not easy.