I got a call from one of the apts (the one I really wanted to live at) I was turned down due to the children's father not paying rent...omg that was 15 years ago and just because my name was on the lease also I am being penilized for it now...he made my life hell while married to him and he's still doing so even after the divorce...to be honest I am not sure why I am so surprised because from the time we got the divorce he's been trying to get the children from me...LOL in Florida the social worker used to bring over donuts and sit and have coffee cuz he knew the alligations were all lies...I've been fighting to keep my children even to this date but each time they find I am a good mom to my children and will give them what they need, make sure there is a roof over their heads and always a full belly...my children have always come before me and I will continue to do that until the day I die...
after calming down I decided to go to walmart and get some boxes...walking down the isle I wasnt paying any attention (I have things to get done and wanted to get them done) when all of the sudden I ran smack into someone...I looked up and there was buttmunch...OMG I froze and dont remember anything until the ambulance guys were asking me if I was doing ok...they said the lady that called the ambulance said I turned white and started shaking...my blood pressure shot up sky high and the emts wanted to take me to the hospital...I told them no its a panic attack and I would be ok once I got home and relaxed...one of the emts drove my car home for me and made me sign a paper stating I refused treatment...
not long after getting home I get a call from the other apts...OMG my income is $6.00 below thier min amount...living there would cost me less than $500 a month...shoot I am paying $500 a month for this house PLUS all the utilities and making it...what is 6 frigging dollars?!?!? well now I need a co-signer...I called mom and left a message on her machine...havent heard from her yet...
I have to thank my loving sis for offering to let me stay with her until I can find a place in wichita if the apt falls through...I love you sis and without you I know for sure my world will fall apart...I cant pay rent here (which is due on the 15th) plus move into a new place...You've been my life saver from the beginning and you will always hold a special place in my heart...*hugs*
my wonderful friends on LC...I am sorry I havent been sending comments like I had been...ty for the emails asking if everything is ok and that you have been missing my comments...I've just been going through alot and trying to get my head back on straight again...thank you for sending me comments although I havent been sending them back...they bring a smile to my face and let me know that I am thought of *hugs*
