RIP BEAR FuhubbyRL Engaged to TXangel's blog: "How much do you really want to know?"

 Please allow me to set this up for you. I drove a truck for about 5 years with a flawless delivery rate, always on time alwys found my way from point to point, I have lived in my current location for the last 3 or more years, i have been able to find my house in hard rains, dust storms, you name it, and have never lost my car at Six Flags. i just went over to my friends house and he offered me a bowl of some stuff he had aquired. I being the good friend I am and not wanting to offend... I smoked it. It was good. It was nice and smooth the way you would expect it should be before it knocks the fuck out of you like a velvet hammer. When the bowl was finished I looked into the bowl and thought ,"wow." I didn't realize how right I was.

I was driving around the circle because i don't live too far away and I saw a police officer sitting in his car at an intersection. I checked my speed, seatbelt, and looked straight ahead. As soon as I passed him I glanced at my mirror to make sure he wasn't there then checked my speed once more and lifted my eyes quickly back to the road. It was just then and at this point I realized I didn't know where the fuck I live!!

Really? 5 years on the road,lived here 3 damn years, never lost my way.....i smooth forgot where the hell my house was. I almost pulled up to a house that wasn't mine till i saw my smoker out front.

I've smoked some pretty god shit and have been drunk enought to forget the nihgt but this i the first damn time some shit made me forget where the fuck i live!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

I was still on edge walking through the yard up to the door. I was thinking," it looks like my pit. but they sold a bunch of them.yeah but it's burnt like yours.duh...bbq pit.wasn't even real sure walking in the front door it'll i saw my babys beautiful smile ..................

If you read this thanks

If not it's no hair off my ass.

 

Why did you leave? How bad could i have been? I was 6 months old Why did you carry me that long? Why didn't you kill me when you had the chance? you could have aborted.... could have ended it all before it started. You chose not to. Instead I'm left living with this . Wondering,eager,doubting my own self worth. Was that your plan? Did you want to hurt me that bad? Why? What did i do? Even if it wasn't my fault.... why have i not heard from you? the only time you heard me talk was when i asked you to come see me And all you said was... "I don't drive" If you're on here I hope you find me And I hope you read this. I hope you see what I've become. I hope you regret what you've done. I hope it eats at you Like a cancer uncureable terminal I hope you're happy with the new life you have With the kids you were kind enough to keep. I will always resent you And all that you are I hope you're happy With the mess you've made of me.....