Everytime you turn the corner life will always be throwing something new at you, whether its good or bad or even unnoticable. Many times I look back on my life and look at the things that have happened in my life and I see mostly bad things. And many times I just think all this has happened and yet I still don't have anything to show for it, and then I begin to think that hey I'm only 20 and I still have many MANY more years and different experiances to live and many opportunities to blow and try to make up for. But then I begin to think if everything has been bad so far, why would the future be any different. One day I may be able to see the beauty of things in life but yet I just don't think I can at the moment.