You know, I've really started to wonder and question things like my "so called friendships" with people whether they're living in my area or what not. I mean as it stands right now, gas these days are down in my area from $1.60 a gallon for gas unlike what it was several months ago here, I know a lot of people are laid off and out of work because of the unstable economy but my god, it shouldn't flipping matter here if gas is $1.60 per gallon or almost $5.00 per gallon for gas here, I am a human being just like anyone else that is physically challenged that has a right to have friendships and they sure as hell don't have to be online friendships either, it's ridiculous, now these days and for years ever since the internet made it's appearance people like myself and yes I am guility of it too have just sat here on my butt along with other people and have talked to people and that, which is ok but it's not great, spending time with people that are my friends is something I want to do sometime here in the near future here, it doesn't have to be outsisde either, it could playing Uno or a board game or something here. What my mom said is becoming very true here, it's a very cold world and I am not talking about the weather either, I mean, if certain people that are supposed to be my friends that aren't online don't come around or call, what does that mean as very good example, what does that me for our US troops that come home after being shot or lose a limb or something from a landmine or a grenade, are people going to sit there and treat them like people have treated me and many others that are physically challenged or disabled? it really makes me wonder if people actually care or gave a shit or are they just being ignorant and doesn't even think about that at all and live in their own little world, personally I care because honest to God, if that was me in Afghanistan or Iraq, it could of been me that was shot or lost a limb due to a land mine or grenade or something here. I think especially for yesterday since it was December 7 on the anniversary of the attack on Pearl Harbor where over 2,000 men and women died because of the attakck by the Japanesse, people also need to think that could be them, I know if I had to serve for our armed forces, it couild be me! So I think people need to put themselves in my shoes or in one of our soldiers shoes that come home from Afghanistan or iraq and think that just because they lose a limb or what not or like me who is physically challenged need friends away from the computer and to spend time with them and not feel like I have lately like not many people give a shit or something, wake up people and use that brain for a change. Also on Fubar some people asks me to do this and that for them when it comes to a contest on here and I do it but yet do some people do anything for me, hell no, I feel like I'm being used and if that is the case I don't think I'll be doing much of helping anyone until I get something like that in return here, it's ridiculous, I have been used many times when it was by people away from this thing I honest don't care for it one bit and if anyone understands how I feel, they'll realize and for those that being used hasn't happened to them their either lucky or their time might come sooner or later here!
