almost a month ago i met this great guy, we've seen eachother a couple times and whenever im with him its like everything else stands still, when he kisses me the feeling is impossible to explain. but when im with him i never want the day to end, he treats me better then any guy ive ever dated before, he makes me so damn happy.
all the feelings i have are hard to explain to someone who doesnt understand whats its truely like to be in love with someone, but how do you tell someone you love them without pushing them away?
im so afraid to lose him i already know what its like to not have him in my life because someone has already tried to mess that up for us, but i am in love with him.
now the next 3 weeks will be a trying time for us because he's going to visit family for the holidays but when he comes home i hope that he would of missed me enough to come home to me.
im scared to death to lose him again, but yet im scared to tell him how i truely feel.
im hoping i can hold out to tell him in person when he comes home but i dont know if i can.
when he and i are apart it kills me, when hes with me im wishing he'd never leave so i dont know what to do.
