SERIn Luv w Dyeanna's blog: "The hardest question for me to answer"

How do you mend a broken heart?

When the past overwhelmes you,how can you erase the memories that haunt you?

Is there every any relief from emotional distress?

At this point in my life,I believe that there isnt.

All of my good memories have long since faded,

But my painful ones still remain...simply there to torment me.

Ive mended my broken heart many times now,

And its healed itself over plenty

Even though theres scars all over,its still working and still beating.

But some cuts dont really heal..

Some hurts go too deep to ever fully heal.

I fear that the stitches in my heart wont hold for much longer,

And once again I'll be a broken,and shattered man.

All that I cannot bear any longer..

I keep trying to find the relief that I know is out there,

But for as many places as Ive looked for it,it always eludes my searching..

Leaving me wondering if there ever WILL be a relief from my inner turmoil?

For a short time I had the ultimate relief.......LOVE.

Love beats the demon.

It doesnt just lessen it...it totally BEATS the demon.

Ive been lucky enough to be blessed with finding love in the course of my life...

But I found its quite slippery,and will slip thru your fingers if you're not careful..

Or will go on without you if not properly cared for.

That was MY mistake.

I thought that since I now had love,it was MINE for the keeping..

But I was wrong.

I looked away one too many times,and eventually it ran away..never to be seen again.

But I can only blame myself for my lack of attention

Ive learned from my mistakes and Ive sworn to give it ALL the attention it deserves...

but alas,I no longer have love.

Its chosen to stay away from me.And I guess its for the better.

Because when I think about it logically...

Who am I,really,to be deserving of love?

I am nothing...

I am nobody...

I dont deserve love.