Butterflyrains's blog: "My Daughter"

I had no clue we had a blog here..Well its like this up until 2007 I was rollling along lifes highway feeling so good..Then the dragon raised his bufugly head..When I got sick well I got sick..Started tx in the fall of that year...It was real bad..First off loosing the money I use to make was bad then this tx crap well hell man whats next? Well suicide attempt was next..The tx had me crazy..I mean truly nuts..I couldnt sleep eat think nothing was the same and since then nothing has returned to true sanity...My daughter was so use to being spoiled the littel brat and having to loose my business due to the dragon well money left us..I live on disability now and well who the hell can live on that tiny bit of cash..So this last couple of years I have lost...So much but  mostly I have lost Savannah..her innocence was taken away due to my sickness..She is so out there it scares me daily..I love this child more than my own breath..She was my late in life child..So needless to say she was unexpected and when I first held her in my arms my love was stronger than any hurricane in this state i live in but now a days I have such anger towards her..Sometimes I just wanna whack her a good one...NO clue why im writting this all so early in the morning just know i miss my child..I miss me...I miss the life we had before the dragon raise his firey breath up and took our lives from us...