I don't care I'm out of your lives -
To the world everyone is a stranger.
If you're cruel, you're bound to survive,
If sincere - in the end you'll surrender.
Everyone is a loner at heart,
Every place on the earth is forsaken;
Destiny, writing everyone's part
For the stage, so-called life, was mistaken.
Love has never existed at all,
It's a wraith of a desperate dreamer.
Lovers think they can fly - they just fall,
Hopeless liars and naive believers.
There ain't nobody, askin me, where I've been
There ain't nobody, that would name me, as a friend
There ain't nobody, that's droppin by, to say hi
There ain't nobody, that's carin whether I live or die
I have nobody, to tell about, my growing angers
I have nobody, to tell about me, following strangers
There ain't nobody makin sure I'm taking all of my pills
There ain't nobody, slowing me down and keeping me still, Im truly alone
They say a man can only be alone for so long, before the man's mind is gone
They say a man can only be alone for so long, before the man's mind is gone
They say a man can only be alone for so long, before the man's mind is gone
They say a man can only be alone for so long, before the man's mind is gone
There ain't nobody, telling me, not to jump off
There ain't nobody, telling me, not to chop your block off
I get so bloody, I ruin, all of my clothes
I get so bloody, I sit in, the dark alone
I have nobody, to tell about, my dark fantasies
I have nobody, to tell about, my dark realities
There ain't nobody, around me, nobody wanna be friends
I get so bloody, all on me, the mess never ends, I'm truly alone
They say a man can only be alone for so long, before the man's mind is gone
They say a man can only be alone for so long, before the man's mind is gone
They say a man can only be alone for so long, before the man's mind is gone
They say a man can only be alone for so long, before the man's mind is gone
I walked into a Super K, and went to the back
I started askin' questions checkin' out the chainsaw rack
they had a test model, I pulled the cord and got it runnin'
turned the blade on the kid workin and blood started gunnin'
"what the fuck am i doing?" I dropped the shit and started crying
I made it down two aisles before some hero clotheslined me
I got up, grabbed a shovel and stabbed him in the gut
I pulled it out and hammered it across the back of his nug
I'm hearing sirens going off, it's no blue light specials
I turned murderer, caving in to daily life pressures
but fuck that now all y'all gonna know me
seein' me of TV, being like "look there go my homie"
I'm more than lonely I'm lost, lives are the cost,
I just beat some bitch in the head, stabbed her twice and took off
they can't find me I'm hidin' in the flannel coat rack
I jump out and attack and put a gash in your neck
I finally made to the front door and to the parking lot
that's when I got shot, a lot, I got got
Police withe bullets and more bullets pluggin' me deep
I'm seeing flashes, hearing screamin; and it;s all over me
I see a crowd of people being held behind the police tape
all watching me die, I think I made no mistake
I finally got some recognition, dying on my knees
ready for hell because compared to my life it should be an ease..
like easy...
cake walk...
I'm ready...
let's go...
Amazing song from an amazing band...
Once more I say goodbye, to you
Things happen but we don't really know why
If it's supposed to be like this, why do most of us ignore the chance to miss?
Oh yeah...
Torn apart at the seams and my dreams turn to tears, I'm not feeling this situation
Run away try to find a safe place you can hide
It's the best place to be when you're feeling like..
Me...(me!)
Yeah...(yeah!)
All these things I hate revolve around
Me...(me!)
Yeah...(yeah!)
Just back off before I snap
Once more you tell those lies, to me
Why can't you just be straight up with honesty?
When you say those things in my ear, why do you always tell me what you wanna hear?
Oh yeah...
Wear your heart on your sleeve, make things hard to believe, I'm not feeling this situation
Run away try to find a safe place you can hide
It's the best place to be when you're feeling like..
Me...(me!)
Yeah...(yeah!)
All these things I hate revolve around
Me...(me!)
Yeah...(yeah!)
Just back off before I snap and you'll see...(see!)
Me...(me!)
All these things I hate revolve around
Me...(me!)
Yeah...(yeah)
Just back off before I snap...
Torn apart at the seams and my dreams turn to tears, I'm not feeling this situation
Run away try to find a safe place you can hide
It's the best place to be when you're feeling like me...
It's the best place to be when you're
Me...(me!)
Yeah...(yeah)
All these things I hate revolve around
Me...(me!)
Yeah...(yeah!)
Just back off before I snap and you'll see...(see!)
Me...(me!)
All these things I hate revolve around
Me...(me!)
Yeah...(yeah)
Just back off before I snap...
"Suicide Note Pt. I"
by Pantera
Cheap cocaine, a dry inhale, the pills that kill and take the pain away
Diet of life, shelter without, the face that cannot see inside yours and mine
When I'm hiding, when I need it,
it lets me breathe,
for our handle on this life, I don't believe
this time
Would you look at me now?
Can you tell I'm a man?
With these scars on my wrists
To prove I'll try again
Try to die again, try to live through this night
Try to die again.....
Forever fooling, free and using,sliding down the slide that breaks a will
Mothers angel, getting smarter, how smart are you to regress unfulfilled?
It's a damn shame, but who's to blame?
When I'm hiding, when I need it,
it lets me breathe,
for our handle on this life, I don't believe
this time
Would you look at me now?
Can you tell I'm a man?
With these scars on my wrists
To prove I'll try again
Try to die again, try to live through this night
Try to die again.....
"Suicide Note Pt. II"
by Pantera
Out of my mind,
gun up to the mouth
No pretension, execution, live and learn , rape and turn
Fret not family,
nor pre-judged army
This is for me,
and me only, cowards only
Try it
Don't you try to die, like me
It's livid and it's lies and makes graves
Graves descending down
It's not worth the time to try, to replenish a rotting life
I'll end the problem, facing nothing, fuck you off, fuck you all
Tortured history, addict of misery, this exposes me
for weakness is a magnet - watch me do it
Don't you try to die, like me
It's livid and it's lies and makes graves
Graves descending down
Why would you help anyone who doesn't want it,
doesn't need it, doesn't want your shit advice
when a mind's made up to go ahead and die?
What's done is done and gone, so why cry?
Don't you try to die, like me
It's livid and it's lies and makes graves
Graves descending down
I'm fucking done....
Later....
Alone I travel though the wasteland in my heart
As the grievance tears me apart
Thinking of you and the things you meant to me
My heart is bleeding, I can't go on
If I could unwid the wheel of time
I would have been by your side
If I could turn back time
My precious love would be alive
The empty void inside my heart grows day by day
I have nowhere to turn to ease the pain
Remembering the smile you used to give me
And your laughter that could light
My way home
If I could unwid the wheel of time
I would have been by your side
If I could turn back time
I never had a chance to say goodbye
I have cried and mourned my loss
My heart keeps beating only for you
Am I strong enough to fight on?
Without your love I stand,
I stand empty and alone
So my love watch over me now
My rage catches fire, I will strike them down
I will avenge you, oh, vengeance so sweet
That's my last gift for you
I'm forever walking alone
I'm alone in this world
And I like it this way
By myself is how it is
And by myself is how it'll stay
I don't need anyone,
To call me on the phone
To chat with me for hours
To make me feel not so alone
I don't need anyone,
To hold me when I'm down
Cheer me up when I'm sad
Make me smile when I frown
I don't need anyone,
To take a walk with me
Talk about the little things in life
To laugh and smile with glee
I don't need anyone,
To tell me it'll be OK
That everything will get better
My problems will fade away
I don't need anyone,
To tell me they love me
I don't need to feel loved
I just want to feel free
Free from other people
Free from what they feel
Free from the effect they have on me
On my own I'll heal
So what are people for?
Caring? Talking to? Holding you? Talking on the phone?
Why would I want any of these things?
I'm better of being alone...
If I ever get free of this place,
My happiness would lift me into space.
I'd die a thousand deaths to turn back time,
For a happy life free of the misery and pain.
A happy family, happy childhood, is that insane?
All I ever wanted was to curl up into a ball,
All I ever did was throw my feelings at the wall.
Yeah, I'm good at sport and
Yeah, I've good qualifications from which behind I can hide,
But it's not me, it's not me inside.
All I ever feel is nothing for anything or anyone,
I'm kinda like a candle with all the wax gone.
A light that was there, just an empty space in which it shone.
I got used to it, and now it's who I am,
The me before is me anyway, how can I change,
When this is all I am, when I am really nothing.
How can I change what is set for me,
I can't, I have to feel pain, at least feeling pain is feeling something.
Something is better than nothing and nothing is all I can be,
I look behind, I look ahead, still nothing's all I see.
Welcome to hell.
Not the general hell, by my own.
Where money and power rule,
where gunshots are heard every minute of everyday.
A place where men are kings and women are whores.
A place of deceit, lies, death, destruction, and drugs.
Some may see this place and think of it as a nightmare,
I call it reality, I call it home.
Am I happy in this hell?
In a sick and twisted way, yes I am.
They don't call me "heartless" for nothing.
I smile at the things of this world,
laugh at the destruction,
and find amusement in the people.
I cherish every moment of this world,
and can not wait to be back in it.
Call me what you want,
it doesn't matter to me.
I don't show love,
don't want love,
don't care about love.
Love has cost me more than I was willing to give.
Now I show only hate,
and I am happy with what I am.
I am happy with what I have become.
This is my life,
and I choose it well.
