i dont know what is worse haveing to say good bye or not getting to say it at all. this is why i i hate being me. i have realized that me having hope is a mistake. i am not aloud to get close to anyone. so alone i must sufer while the rest of the world finds there friends, lovers, partners. somethings i wil never trully have. i always tried to not be in the incrowd. if i have to give up being who i am to be with someone i guess i hae to give up and join the crowd.
