What do you do when you're stuck, 
Because the one that you love, 
Has pushed you away, 
And you can't deal with the pain? 
And now you're trying to fix me, 
Mend what he did, 
I'll find the piece that i'm missing, 
But I still miss her, 
I miss her, i'm missing her, 
Oh I miss her, I miss her i'm missing her 

And you're sitting in the front row, 
Wanna be first in line, 
Waiting by my window, 
Giving me all your time, 
You could be my hero, 
If only I could let go, 
But her love is still in me, 
Like a broken arrow. 

She's the thorn in my flesh 
That I can't take out 
She's stealing my breath 
When you're around, 
And now you're trying to convince me, 
She wasn't worth it, 
But you can't complete me, 
She's the part that is missing, 
I miss her, I'm missing her, 
Oh I miss her I miss her, i'm missing her, 

And you're sitting in the front row, 
Wanna be first in line, 
Waiting by my window, 
Giving me all your time, 
You could be my hero, 
If only I could let go, 
But her love is still in me, 
Like a broken arrow. 
Like a broken arrow. 

What do you do 
When your heart's in two places? 
You feel great but you're torn inside. 
You feel love but you just can't embrace it, 
When you found the right one at the wrong time. 

And you're 
Sitting in the front row, 
Wanna be first in line, 
Waiting by my window, 
Giving me all your time, 
You could be my hero, 
If only I could let go, 
But his love is still in me, 
Like a broken arrow.

Right now. My mind is racing. Not the middle of the month and life is messed up again. But due to what something happened last week. I have spent thursday though sunday in jacksonville florida with some friends. One drove five hours to get me to calm me down and try get over this. I am here. 2 years without sleeping good and feeling sick. Finaly slept and feeling a bit better. I just need a new place to call home. Just hope i can find it one day

Today is Valentines Day
A day to show a love one you care 
But how can you hold them kiss them console them 
When no one is even there 
Today is a day of us together 
And not a second to be left apart
But knowing today won't bring those things 
It continues to break my heart 
I know I'm supposed to be happy 
And I really look the part 
But how can I smile 
And pretend that I'm happy 
When a piece is missing from my heart 
Today won't change the crying 
Today won't change pain 
Today won't change the fact 
That heartache is now a part of my name 
Today for me is lonely
Today for me is untrue 
Today for me is wishing 
That once again I still had you
But wishes are like fairy tales 
They rarely do come true 
So today is a day of loneliness 
And me being sad and blue 
Today for you is laughing 
Because to you my love is a game 
So while your happy spending time with friends 
I'm left to drown in pain 
Today is not a day anymore 
Its a waste of useless time 
Today for me is
Loneliness, heartache, crying, praying 
That soon again you'd be mine
 

All the things i used to do

Dont seem to mean much anymore

Every face and every place

Were lost along the way

Im sitting here all by mysrelf

Looking in the mirror

Holding a old photograph

Oh how it used to be

Everything comes from the heart

I believe that its true

Time changes pride from the heart

its all from the heart

all the words i used to say

Dont mean much anymore

Every hurt and every word

Were bought along the way

Im sitting here all by myself

Looking out the window

Im playing a old record

The same old melody

Every word comes from the heart

I believe that its true

Times mends each hurt from the heart

its all from the heart

theres no need to hide inside

The old world anymore

Youre standing here right next to me

I turn to you and smile

Love it begins from the heart

I believe its true

Time mends each hurt from the heart

I believe its true

Every word comes from the heart

I believe its true

Lately I've been wandering
Off the narrow path
You’ve given me so many things that I've never had
And all in all I know it's you that always pulls me through
If you reach deep inside you’ll see my heart is true
Cause I hate the way I feel tonight
And I know I need you in my life
Yes I hate the way I feel inside
And I promise to make the sacrifice 
The world I know is pulling me
More and more each day
I feel like the odd man out as I begin to pray
Spiteful eyes are watching me
With everything I do
In the midst of darkness Lord
My spirit calls for you
You know sometimes deep inside
I feel like this
Cause I hate the way I feel tonight
And I know I need you in my life
Yes I hate the way I feel inside
And I promise to make the sacrifice 
The Way I Feel 

Just sitting here thinking about the past and such. Made some good and bad choices. Been around the states and a few countries. Thinking how certain people screwed me over. Talk with all the sugar coating talk only to be lied to. Some days i wanna give up and some i dont. I can be a fool sometimes. Like someone you pick up. Use it til you had your fun and toss me away. Due to this one person they made me think who to trust and who not to trust. I was once married for 13 years and thought life was grand til something happened and lost it all. Then one time i traveled acrossed the united states to be with this one person and had a good thing only to be let down.