Deorwirth's blog: "Hollow"

MEMORANDUM 003 MEMORANDUM FOR: GENERAL RELEASE SUBJECT: FAQ FROM: ORDER CQ Q. What is The Order (official)? The Order is a militant movement in favor of culture preservation. The band is at the center of The Order, but not The Order in its entirety. This body promotes the values of strength, unity, and honor, and push for a new era of life. Q. What is C.P.P.? C.P.P. Stands for the Cultural Preservation Party. It is a private division that is intended to further demonstrate strong opinion towards the declination. Q. Why is Cultural Preservation Important? A. To preserve one's culture is to sustain a way of life through not only your generation, but also the next without changing the initial values and properties. We must not allow our life to endure culture shifts that would prove disastrous to the reputation, and survival of our culture. "Without Cultural Preservation, we are at the mercy of industry and record label executives to dictate to us what our Culture is. Our culture wasn't formed by a think group. It was created by people like us. What you hear and see on the radio and TV now is just an image skimmed from the surface of what we are really about. It's just a shell, hollow at the core". XO Bahnsen / Minister of the Order Q. What is the declination? A. The artistic depression of the 21st Century. Q. What do you refer to as the opposition? A. The opposition are those who knowingly or unwittingly promote the declination. Q. Are you Nazi's or associated with any form of National Socialism? A. No Q. What message are you promoting in the music? A. We promote strength, unity, honor, and discipline, basically an all around higher living standard for the youth of this world. We also use world history to further educate as well as entertain the supporter. Q. What does The Order (official) have to say about the United States of America? A. The Order fully promotes and supports the ideals of the United States of America. Many of us are patriots and have served in the Armed Forces. We are Pro-America. Q. Does The Order (official) promote war? A. Yes, No, Maybe. What war are you talking about? Our War is against the declination. We've drawn a line. We have given people a choice. It's a simple decision really. You're either with us, or against us. We promote the survival of our lifestyle, and culture. If that means we have to go to war to protect what belongs to us, then yes, we promote war. Would you ask a country that's being invaded by a foreign power if they promote violence? Q. What is the Alliance? A. The Alliance is a network of bands that are in support of the ideals of The Order (official). All groups / bands / associations involved with this are in support or a part of the new movement. Q. How can my band join The Alliance? A. If you have a group who feels they share the same ideals, just mention this to a member who will report your inquiry to our CQ. We welcome bands, and associations, and other underground societies to join up in force against this opposition. We must stick together and uphold a new standard of this era. The Order (official) will tour nationally with the strongest bands in the Alliance. DISCLAIMER: The Order (official) is a performing music group with an international interest. The group may cause certain individuals to be offended by the imagery, music, or message. Let us state once again so there is no misunderstanding…. The Order (official) does reflect elements of Teutonic, or Germanic heritage. This is our ancestry, and our right. If you are certain you have become offended, then very possibly the problem you have isn't with Nazi's, but with German people as a whole. Finally, we do not support National Socialism, nor does any member of our entourage possess the interest to wage crimes of aggression against any specific race.

Tonight I'm going to be with the band in rehearsal. CO Taylor has been writing and recording all weekend so far. I would like to thank all the wonderful people I have met here on CT. I've had a great Yule so far. Last night I met with my friends in TSF Kindred for a Yule party, Blot and Symbel. Dan of the Oak gifted me with a 15th Century Manuscript that talks about Germanic Cheiftains of that Time. Yes it's the real thing, not a repro. I was Honored to witness the engagment of Wolf to Lisa during the final round of Symble. I want to thank Lord Simion and John from Industiral Radio Podcast for helping my band The Order by playing our Single Thwarted. We've received a lot of positive feedback from people. I want to thank Chrissy for being a dear friend and wish her the best new year. Hopefully by the end of next year I will be able to speak with her in German. I am in the midst of doing the Pimsleur German course. only on lesson 9 so far, so I have a long way to go. anyways this blog is starting to get sappy so I'll draw it to a close. Happy New Year to all of you -D

Hmmm you ever get something you want to pass on? I got some Kwanzaa cookies. I think they will be moving on in the next few days. -D

Practice saturday went well as usual. I met up with CO Taylor earlier than normal to go over some new material and work on some recording though we never really got around to the recording part. It takes cigars and grey goose vodka and merlot to fuel creativity. seeing as they don't sell the brands of everything we like in one place (musicians are a picky lot) we had to go to 3 different stores to get the right cigars, right merlot, and the right vodka. Ended up picking up some beer as well. By the time we got back to head-quarters we only had time to cover some new material and give Taylor some time to try some different vocal approches to the riffs he put together. Yes I'm a human loop machine... XO Harris our drummer showed up around 8 and we played till about 2am. Then spent the rest of the time socializing and making plans. I got home about 5am to odd news from one of my CT friends. I hope all is well with her. I wont eloborate because I don't like spreading peoples problems in the street. But I do wish her the best and a quick recovery.

Cherry tap is awesome for meeting new people. I I know a few people on here from IRL, but I have met more new people on here in a week than I have in the previous year. Some really cool people at that. -D

I guess it's kind of like a myspace for adults? Here is what I don't get 1. The points thing? I guess this is to keep people browsing myspace. 2. How is this better than myspace? I guess if you're collecting "friends" it's pretty much the same. The biggest diffrence for me is that I know pretty much everyone on my myspace friends list. it's easier to actually do worthwhile networking. and easy to find people from your past, provided they are on myspace and that they want to be found. I only know one person on my friends list here on Cherry Tap from somewhere else. Not that I mind meeting new people. But thats seems to be the only point to this site. Does it have any practical uses? -D

You ever get one of them times when you don't know why but you are just sick with the whole prospect of being alive. I don't mean in a suicidal way but you're just sick of everything you're made of. The fact that you're alive and that you will die and you're just this skin sack filled with bones. Your very place in life and where you sit in it this very day. You have nothing to be upset about. but you're discusted anyways? What is this emotion called? Melancoly? Probably not.... Reminds me of some shitty emo song. I've been looking for my biological father recently, mostly just for information so I can trace ancestry. So far I've found out that he doesn't exist. He is the most illusive son of a bitch to ever walk the face of the earth. Seriously. I can't find one fucking bit of information on him. I only have one single document with his name and any kind of information that should be of help but he doesn't exist. I can't help but feel pissed off about this. I feel like I have no reason for being here, If I had some kind of past to anchor myself to I would have a foundation of some sort to build on. I have no long term friends from my past. I don't know anyone from my childhood. I had listed 2 high schools that I attended but ended up deleting one of them because I really don't remember anyone there. I'll probably delete the second one cause I don't remember much of anyone there either. Actually I might just delete all of it cause I don't even remember anyone from the colleges or other schools. The more I think about it. I don't have a past. The past that I did have was manufactured for the people I was around. Military Brats do this, cause their lives aren't interesting and they have to make friends over and over. So they lie about who they are to make people like them. So let me do a quick autobio here and see if I can come up with who I really am. Dave Borrell, born Charles N Allen jr. (Charles seinor, doesn't exist) I have no biological father that can be found I don't have a past of any friends that I can remember past the 12 years I've been married. I've had 2 serious relationships prior to marriage, meaning I can remember their names. A slew of other girlfriends who I can't remember anything about execpt what they looked like. I learned to play guitar along the way and have always been interested in music. That is the only constant thing I can remember out of all my years. My bloodline that I have established was put together on researching the history of a surname but not my family line cause it doesn't exist. I can't accept the family line of my adoptive father because it isn't mine. I honestly feel that I was the baggage that came along with the deal. Is it possible for someone to go through life and not have any clue as to how the fuck they got to where they are... My life is black with shades of grey punctuated by a few intense burst of white, that being my children being born. The varying shades of grey is music that has had some ability to illicit a emotional response and give some emotion to the ride. It's a soundtrack that was made for a movie that was never filmed. or perhaps a slideshow of a few images. There is not enough information to build a story for this character. I'm hollow On a lighter note, I went to The Castle Saturday to meet with The Order. Things went well. I had a good time and I enjoyed myself. I haven't been there in a few years. I didn't realize how much I missed being there with all the fucking freaks like me. Ran into an old friend (meaning within the past 12 years that I have been married. I have no friends from before this time) which was unexpected but nice.