Stay's blog: "My thoughts"

I AM FALLING TO PIECES, MY MIND IS LOST IN THIS THOUGHT AND IT'S EATING ME ALIVE FROM THE INSIDE OUT. I CAN'T GET BACK TO WHERE I KNOW I NEED TO BE. I AM A LOST SOUL LOOKING FOR THE LIGHT THAT WILL LEAD ME TO THE REALITY THAT IS BEFORE ME. YOU TAKE MY HAND IF ONLY FOR THE MOMENT TO LEAD ME TO THE LIFE I LIVE. YET I WANT TO STAND THERE HOLDING YOUR HAND; NEVER TO LET GO OF THE MOMENT IN WHICH I FEEL YOU ARE MINE. A GLANCE, A WHISPER, AND THEN YOUR GONE AND I STAND RIGHT OUTSIDE THE LIFE THAT IS MY OWN. CURLED INTO A BALL, LYING ON THE GROUND THE TEARS FLOW FREELY NOW. I CAN HEAR YOUR VOICE IN MY HEAD SAYING, "DON'T GIVE INTO THE DEPRESSION WHICH LOOKS TO CONSUME YOU. YOU MY LOVE CAN BE BETTER THAN THAT." IT IS WORDS I KNOW ARE TRUE AND YET I FIND MYSELF STILL FEELING LOST IN THE MIDDLE OF AN INVISIBLE LINE BETWEEN REALITY AND MY DREAMS. THE REALITY IS LONELY AND MY DREAMS ARE SO FAR FETCHED THAT I AM LOSING MY MIND BETWEEN THE TWO. I AM SCARED FOR FEAR IF I GIVE UP THE DREAMS TO THE REALITY I WILL LOSE IT COMPLETELY. SO I LAY THERE LISTENING TO YOUR VOICE IN MY HEAD OVER AND OVER AGAIN, FOR I HAVE ALREADY FALLEN TO PIECES AND THE TEARS THAT FALL JUST GO TO SHOW THAT I AM COMPLETELY LOST TO EITHER REALM. PLEASE HELP ME FIND MY WAY BACK TO THAT MOMENT WHERE THE LONLINESS IS GONE AND THE HAPPINESS SOOTHES MY SOUL. HOLD MY HAND AGAIN…….

STAYLEE DAWN