I guess I've basically severed my ties with my ex. It seems weird. It was something that was probably going to happen eventually. The stupid grieving thing is going to mildly affect me. Just because it's a change, and a loss. Even though I decieded it on my own. Too bad we can't just tell the natural cycles of things not to affect us when we made our own decision about it.
It's weird to think about the beginning of the end. I think the end really began near the beginning. It all just slowly erroded from there over time. Somtimes 4 steps forward, 5 steps backwards. A long slow procces. Major events were her asking about something she didn't want to hear about, and leaving a comment on my page. I got pissed off, ( maybe overly pissed ) and it was like ok, fuck you...
It's one of those things that's good in ways, and not so good in other ways. Like most things, there's always the up and down. Well, I guess not the up and down anymore, but the good and bad..lol
But whatever. I have other stuff to focous my attention on, and spend my time on. LIke school and stuff.
I'm sure I'll probably be writing my feelings an shit out in my blogs to help deal with it all. So don't read them if you think it's just me whining about something I caused myself.
