Phill's blog: "hi"

well where to start.... I lost the girl i loved so much and i might of even fuck it up even more i dont know if she will ever come back or wanna talk to me. i just wished i could change everything just went to the days we were in love and stop, but i know it wont and which makes this world and life in it fucked, i know i shoudl dweal but there so much that ppl and i have to go through. How can i deal with this or what should i do be friends and hope we get back together and wait, or just leave it and move on? it just so hard to choose that im makeing wrong mistakes as the days go by. im doing very good in school well for now lol, but i know its gonna get harder and doing what im doing im scared its gonna diract me and im gonna hurt myself or end up dieing in the process i just cant get her off my mind, i have other girls that are wanting me but its cause im so commited and love one girl i can seem to make that move. oh and what im doing is driveing trucks and construction and mechanics, i got so much work and shit that its just stressing me out bad.

hi whats up ppl im a fucking wreak my mom wants me to move and never come back but yet im getting so much money and she wants it all and when i leave april 9th the check comming here and i wont be here and shes gonna forge my name so she can have all the money and im to fucking nice to do anythin i fucking hate my life and wanna get the fuck out well this is how i feel now ill talk more laterz byezz

umm i still dont get this thing lol so if u can help or if u wanna chat add my msn crown_clown1@hotmail.com and i can wait to meet you. take carez and hopefully talk to ya soon oh i only have msn messenger sorry