Kaos X's blog: "Hi"

Two days ago I found out that our rent is $1024 for the month of march. I don't know how in the hell it is going to get paid cause we don't have the money and that is really pissing me off. I didn't even know that the rent was going to be $1024 anyway. So I am really stressed on what to do cause it looks like i'm going to be the one stuck paying it. AAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH!!!!!!!

[CHORUS] It don't matter where you've been Just focus on where you're going Most people you think are friends Ain't there when the tough gets going Remember to keep your friends Be wise with those you've chosen 'Cause only your closest friends Are there when the going gets tough When I think about it the definition change Back in the old days it wasn't quite the same Or maybe it was but on another level Still pushing dirt with a different type of shovel Loyalty, trust, unconditional foundation Builds everlasting bonds and relations I've got friends I haven't seen in years I'd die for tonight forget and have a couple beers On the other hand you never know where you stand With certain types of friends they'll sell you out for some ends Or some pussy or some weed or a business transaction Some use words but I prefer action I'm a break you off like an old school playa My x-ray vision helps me see through the layers Of you fakes, phonies, lies and deception Ask Matt Hall if you need a life lesson [CHORUS] I've been all around the world and I met a lot of people These fakes and phonies yo these cats I see through Dickheads and homies some others glad to meet you You better give respect to the ones that believed you And were there by your side when the going got tough And had your back when you got to fuck someone up And lent you a buck when you was broke and hungry And gave you a place to sleep living in their luxury Big Up to Chucky that's my dog for real though What up to Judge D since back in junior high school Johnny Rich' that's my man Mr. Brando My partner in crime with the gangsta flow Daddy X, Big Pak, B, Lou, Munch, Kev, Flo Cause if ya don't know now you know Fuck the rest What's up though P.S. to my shoulder blade Alison Marie What up baby Fuck what ya'll think [CHORUS] To make it in this life you got to know who your friends Your boys, your dogs, the ones with you 'til the end The ones that never crack it, they never even bend I mean like when your ass is broke they got the money to lend The type that when you need a ride they give you the car You don't worry about them running 'cause they'll always stand hard Late night, can't drive, man you never too far Barbeque by the pool chilling in the back yard Stepping out on a Friday never leave you behind The first to call you up when they're hitting the kind None the less don't stress 'cause it'll always be fine Like everything I got is yours and what you got is mine Walk in the front door like they own the crib But hey, what's theirs is yours and what's yours is theirs I can't explain it no better that's just how it goes Real friends can't be bought it's got to come from the soul so [CHORUS]

Kid Talking] Daddy, why are people dropping bombs on each other? I don't understand.... [Hook] Some like sunshine, some like rain Some like pleasure, and some like pain Some like peace, and some like war And some don't even know what they're fightin' for What you're fighting for, what you're fightin for Do you even really know? What you're fighting for ohhhh, ohhhhh What you're fighting for [Verse 1] All I wanna do is live this beautiful life Feel free, with my girl, my friends and family Spend my peace and love and truth and unity Tryin' to stop all the violence and the wars overseas People come, people go I know decisive shit But I can't be depressed over someone else's nonsense There's no reason, or time, for me to be Mad or sad, said do you even really know? [Hook] Some like sunshine, some like rain Some like pleasure, and some like pain Some like peace, and some like war And some don't even know what they're fightin' for What you're fighting for, what you're fightin for Do you even really know? What you're fighting for ohhhh, ohhhhh What you're fighting for [Verse 2] You and you there too, I'm fightin' for that too And I hope all of the soldiers come back safe and real soon We got people bein' shot on the streets every day While the rich fill they pockets and the poor just pay Uh, I'm fighting for love and I'm fighting for life Against those doing wrong and for those doing right, yeah For my family and my future to come 'Cause if I dont' fight now then there just might not be one [Hook] Some like sunshine, some like rain Some like pleasure, and some like pain Some like peace, and some like war And some don't even know what they're fightin' for What you're fighting for, what you're fightin for Do you even really know? What you're fighting for ohhhh, ohhhhh What you're fighting for [Verse 3] You see, I can see light in the strangest ways On the darkest nights, and the coldest days And I'm amazed, that somehow, I can keep smilin' I can hear music in the depths of silence I can find peace in the middle of violence And I can be calm when I should be wildin' I can find hope when there is despair And I don't feel alone when there's no one there [Hook] Some like sunshine, some like rain Some like pleasure, and some like pain Some like peace, and some like war And some don't even know what they're fightin' for What you're fighting for, what you're fightin for Do you even really know? What you're fighting for ohhhh, ohhhhh What you're fighting for

I am bored with my life right now. I love the way everything is going but my life isn't exciting anymore. I can pretty much figure out what is going to happen everyday now. Even work is fun anymore. The only thing fun in my life is my kids. I miss not knowing what the next day could be like. I miss hanging out with my bros and my other friends. Hell I even miss going to Gamefrog and playing Halo 1 and 2 for about 3 hours. Maybe life will get better for me in 2007.

Ok so yesterday i started to feel bad after I got home with the kids. I couldn't figure out why. I couldn't keep my eyes open I feel asleep twice. I kept waking up last night and I still feel the same as yesterday which sucks cause I couldn't play with my kids. I hope i am not sick tomorrow for ethans 3rd birthday.

Ok I am really pissed. Today I created a mum askin girls if they thought I was cute. I even went as far as to put girls only and still some asshole had to still put his two cents into it. Why in the hell would you do that. what is your fuckin problem. I hate assholes who can't follow directions.

This song describes how i feel sometime when I wake up in the morning.

Ok for the past 3 days I have been in alot of pain. I thought I had just pinched my lower back but that wasn't it. So today I go to a doctor to find out it is a spider bite. It hurts to stand or sit. I can't really play with my kids and I a really pissed about it. The spider that bit me is one luck some bitch cause if I had caught it he would have been really hurt. So now I am stuck taking anibiotics for a spider bite right at the top of my butt crack. AAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH this hurts like shit!!!!

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