So I have decided something over the last few weeks. I have decided to quit dwelling on what has happened in the past and start living for the upcoming minutes of life. I have seen, done and been through a lot things in my life. Although I don't have regrets I do however have lessons learned. It seems that I have learned most of those lessons in the last seven years. I have two very beautiful angels that I would not trade for anything in the world. I would walk through fire to make sure they were safe. I would do anything to make them as happy as I possibly could. Having these two babies has not been easy and the relationships connected to them have not been a walk in the park. I love every minute that I am with them and miss them every minute that I am away from them. I know in their shot lives on this earth I have put them through some troubling and confusing times and I hope they know they are my heart and soul and reason for living everyday. Being a single mom has taught me my weaknesses and strengths. I hope and pray that one day I will find the man in this world that can prove to me that all males are not little boys that there are men out in that world besides my dad and brothers. I am tired of the games and stupidity that boys play. I am tired of being lied to, cheated on, used, abused and then left to cry all alone. I am done looking and have decided that when that man comes along that he will find me and will do everything to prove to me that he is a man and not a little boy. He will find it worth his time to break down my wall and he will be strong enough to stand by my side and not hurt me, not cheat on me, not use me and not abuse me. I am too old to play games with little boys. I deserve better and I wont accept anything less from here on out. I hope after people read this they won't be afraid to be my friend because I am really not a bad person. I am just someone who is tired of being hurt and refuses to be hurt again. So if you are a liar, cheater, user or abuser please don't talk to me. Thank you for reading this and have a great day!
