Well its like this, I have a millin and one things going through my head at the moment and I need help. I am not gonna say much I think and hope cause I dont think people want to read a million and one pages of blogging so here goes.
First I met this guy over the internet, and we became good friends and I would help him with his issues and with his girlfriend and then while he was with her and even before he would tell me he loved me and after a while of trying to convice him other wise I just gave up on it. so then we are talking more amd more and eventually I started to care for him. now I had never met him face to face and he is under age but I wasnt thinking anything for us other than being friends.
Well he is currently in Ohio and I got to know him more and more and I refused to love him though he asked me many many times to love him I just wouldnt do it. well a little later on down the line we were talking and then all of a sudden he wasnt on line for 3 days or so and I hadnt heard from him and to top it off his mom was crazy and he was in a really bad living enviornment and I thought something horrible happened to him when I hadnt heard from him.
Then on the fourth day my friend contacted me saying he was online and I was like omg and was relieved to find out he wasnt dead. And it was them that I realized that I loved him and I know it was wrong and I know that I shouldnt have fallen for him or let my guard down for any reason but well I did and I fell in love with him. Unfortnately he said he loved me too and I was stupid to believe him. But umm yeah then he started to like my friend who had told me that he wasnt dead but his mom tried to kill him and then we argued about it. well anyways skip ahead.
We havent been together for 3 months plus and when it first happened, when we first broke up I wouldnt look at anyone else, think of anyone else, I didnt know what to do with myself. I was so hurt I was so lost, and confused. I thought I had done all the wrong in the world and wanted to truely die. I was in love with him and he broke my heart like no other had ever done. But he would talk to me all the tims saying how he and I would always be friends and such and I would argue back that it wasnt likely and well since the break-up he and I talked and then I told him talking to him was making things worse and I was hurting more then before when we first broke up.
Well anyways then I tld him I never wanted to talk to him again and told him that I didnt want to talk to him. so for the last three months I hadnt spoken to him though I tried to and to make things better, but without much success. Then I heard that his house had been broken into and I was extremely worried and had no way to find out if things were alright with him and if anything was taken. so you can imagine how I felt. But anyways since our break up I tried to ignore things and work through them and it worked for about a little more than two months. and then out fo no where I broke down again.
So then I got back on my feet and stopped worrying about it and then a few days later it happened again. and the process had repeated itself again twice now, and its about to repeat again. But anyways I have been oing my best to forget him and I have a new boyfriend now and no matter how hard I try I cant get over him. And I dont know how hard I have tried but its just not working.
He is always on my mind and I cant stop crying over him either. And even though I am with someone now the pain hasnt gone away and the love I feel for him only grows more and more for my ex. I care about my current boyfriend and I am happy with him I know that if my ex were to ask me back I would go in a heartbeat.
Now for the part where I ask for help.
1. Is it right that I fell in love with someone who was younger to begin with?
2. Should I be in a relationship right now?
3. What should I do about My current boyfriend? I mean he knows about my ex and still he wants to be with me.
4. Does anyone have an efective method that might help me get over my ex?
5. Should I have waited longer before getting with my current boyfriend?
6. If I do decide to seperate with my current boyfriend, Should I even think about dating?
7. What should I do about my ex? Should I bother trying to talk to him or ignore him all together?
8.Should I be going out with someone I dont really love but I care about?
9. I have told my current boyfriend about my ex was that a good thing?
10. lastly, is it a good thing that I keep somethings about my ex to myself and not tell my current boyfriend?
If you can help me let me know in a message or comment here thats fine too. Thanks for all your help. and dont hesitate to ask me for advie cause I find that I can give helpful advice as well on most topics.
Xoxoxoxoxo,
~Tammy~
