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34 Year Old · Female · From Reno, NV · fuMarried to: Mayhem FM2 H... · fu-Owned by DJ INcorrigible... and is worth 50,000,000 fubucks. · Joined on January 4, 2012 · Born on November 24th · I have a crush on someone and 4 different people have a crush on me!

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Lost

The dream I once dreamed has slowly faded
into the past like an old time picture show.
Dazed by the past and all the pain it brought
I walk on in a haze of thought like a dense fog.
The pain I once felt slowly tore my heart apart
leaving me broken like an old Vase.
How can one moment change the entire world
one has created around them.
A picture perfect moment slowly torn apart
and scattered into the four winds.
Not a moment too soon did i finally realize
alone i must be, forever apart.

Chell aka Heavenlee Dawn 4/28/14

34 Year Old · Female · From Reno, NV · fuMarried to: Mayhem FM2 H... · fu-Owned by DJ INcorrigible... and is worth 50,000,000 fubucks. · Joined on January 4, 2012 · Born on November 24th · I have a crush on someone and 4 different people have a crush on me!
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Have you ever noticed...?

Have you ever noticed that noone is as they seem?
There is no Black and White but Billions of shades of grey.
There are those who seem to be nice to get what they want,
there are those who are to hide the pain inside.

Have you ever noticed that noone notices?
Noone sees the pain you feel when noone notices
They do not care nor even share a moment of time,
they are too busy or too blind to see the hurt they cause.

Have you ever noticed that people cry out for help in different ways.
No two people express themselves in the same ways.
Some yell, Some cry, some hurt themselves,
Others do not notice the quiet ones until its too late.

Have you ever noticed the ones hurting the most are the ones all alone?
Locked away from the cruel world, the heartless millions, the endless pain.
They hide in there homes with no family or friends,
they wither away desperately seeking that one person who cares.

Have you ever noticed how cruel people can be?
Hatred and rage tears and sorrow pain and heartbreak.
The quiet one secretly screaming out for a friend,
the one in the corner crying all alone that noone notices.

Have you ever noticed the world moves so fast it cant notice anything?
Spinning around day after day so happy and free wrapped in there perfect little bubble.
Someday they will see that they didnt noticed the girl whos always alone,
or the boy who bullies cause noone cares or the one who who'd rather die than live.

Have you ever noticed you didnt see hear or try?
Busting along in your perfect world only seeing your own problems.
Someday you will pass her the one who has finally given up,
the one who sot out a friendship in you and you blew them off.

Have you ever noticed that you could have a made a difference?
Taking a min to ask a simple how are you? or is everything ok?
Someday I hope when you need it most you dont find you have noone,
that you never find yourself hurting so much and ending up completely alone.

Have you ever noticed that noone notices?
Dont wait till its too late, Dont wait till you cant do anything.
Slow yourself down and look around,
make a difference in the world one person at a time.

NOTICE

10/18/2013 Chell aka Heavenlee Dawn

"Fuckin' Perfect"

Made a wrong turn once or twice
Dug my way out, blood and fire
Bad decisions, that's alright
Welcome to my silly life

Mistreated, misplaced, misunderstood
Miss 'No way, it's all good'
It didn't slow me down.
Mistaken, always second guessing
Underestimated, look I'm still around

You're so mean when you talk
About yourself. You were wrong.
Change the voices in your head
Make them like you instead.

So complicated,
Look happy, You'll make it!
Filled with so much hatred
Such a tired game
It's enough, I've done all I could think of
Chased down all my demons
I've seen you do the same
(Ohh ohhhhhhh)

The whole world's scared, so I swallow the fear
The only thing I should be drinking is an ice cold beer
So cool in line and we try try try but we try too hard
And it's a waste of my time.
Done looking for the critics, cause they're everywhere
They don't like my jeans, they don't get my hair
Exchange ourselves and we do it all the time
Why do we do that, why do I do that (why do I do that)?

Pretty, pretty please, don't you ever, ever feel
Like you're less than fucking perfect.
Pretty, pretty please, if you ever, ever feel
Like you're nothing, you are perfect to me.

Pink

"How Do You Get That Lonely"

It was just another story printed on the second page
Underneath the Tiger's football score
It said he was only eighteen, a boy about my age
They found him face down on his bedroom floor

There'll be services on Friday at the Lawrence Funeral Home
Then out on Mooresville highway, they'll lay him 'neath a stone...

Did his girlfriend break up with him, did he buy or steal that gun?
Did he lose a fight with drugs or alcohol?
Did his Mom and Daddy forget to say I love you son?
Did no one see the writing on the wall?

I'm not blamin' anybody, we all do the best we can
I know hindsight's 20/20, but I still don't understand...

How do you get that lonely, how do you hurt that bad
To make you make the call, that havin' no life at all
Is better than the life that you had
How do you feel so empty, you want to let it all go
How do you get that lonely... and nobody knows

Blaine Larsen


I've been searchin', wonderin', thinkin' Lost and lookin' all my life I've been wounded, jaded, loved and hated I've wrestled wrong and right I've been readin', writin', prayin', fightin' I guess I would be still, that was until I knew you. if there were no words no way to speak i would still hear you if there were no tears no way to feel inside i'd still feel for you all of my life i have been waiting for all you give to me you've opened my eyes and shown me how to love unselfishly i've dreamed of this a thousand times before in my dreams i couldn't love you more i will give you my heart until the end of time and even if the sun refused to shine even if romance ran out of rhyme you would still have my heart until the end of time 'cause all i need is you, you're all i need, my love The sun is shinin' everyday The clouds never get in the way for you and me I've known you just a month or two But baby I'm so into you Can hardly breathe I never knew that I could feel like this Can hardly wait till our next kiss If I'm dreamin' please don't wake me up 'Cause baby I can't get enough Of what you do And I'm in so totally Wrapped up emotionally Attracted so physically Actin' so recklessly I need you so desperately And I'm so electrically Charged up kinetically Actin' erractically Need you fanatically You get to me magically Sure as your eyes are blue Baby I love you Do you love me too

Lemons are sweet as honey Usually life is fair Purple's a shade of money and Jesus doesn't care Hummingbirds don't fly backwards Lovers don't say goodbye Saturn has 7 rings And I have never told a lie I never dream of you and me It's strange I don't know why I'm really not that lonely You never cross my mind And when I hear your name It doesn't cut me like a knife This is how I keep my sanity This is what I need you to believe I don't walk these halls And I don't climb these walls every night And I don't cry And even though I'm waiting by the phone I don't want you to call I don't miss you at all Lies All lies



I've been searchin', wonderin', thinkin' Lost and lookin' all my life I've been wounded, jaded, loved and hated I've wrestled wrong and right I've been readin', writin', prayin', fightin' I guess I would be still, that was until I knew you.I'm in so totally Wrapped up emotionally Attracted so physically Actin' so recklessly I need you so desperately And I'm so electrically Charged up kinetically Actin' erractically Need you fanatically You get to me magically Sure as your eyes are blue Baby I love you Do you love me too
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  • Heavenlee Dawn ... If I don't keep you satisfied You can't say that I haven't tried And if I'm not what you want by now For the life of me I can't see how I'll ever be Everyhing that you want me to be
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