Beautiful Angel SupportTheTroops's blog: "heartbreak"

love is nothing that i haven't felt before but now that i lost it i don't want it ever more i am in love with a guy that don't feel the same and there is no one at all to blame so i am giving up on love like love gave up on me so i am not looking for love at all cause i had love once and love made me fall

its been a week a really long week and still he has not came back to me he told me he loved me and missed me so much yet the day after that he took away his love how can it be was it even real or just a very bad dream i never wanted us to end and here i feel as if i am to blame yet i know it not that all i know is he don't feel the same he says he don't love me like he should but how can that be how was his love denied from me to be married we were yet noting came from it just heartbreak and tears and a sadness from within my heart is still breaking and i don't know what to do i feel so empty and alone without his love here i am again feeling blue i miss him more then i think he knows my love for him will always be my love for him will never be shared he is my true love i know this all now i just wish he knew this i just wish he loved me as i do him

if love had real meaning then heartbreak would never be if love wasn't impossible then it all must have been a dream if the way he felt was only true if he loved me never would it have came to be that his love was denied from me i know how i feel for him i know how i feel now alone i know that he loves me.... but i can't go on without him i don't want too so as i sit here and type and i start to think i know what must come to pass to tell him i love him to beg him not to do this to cry and tell him that i love him but nothing came from it so now i know what must be will be and i know what i must do but to do it will feel like hell but no pain will ever hurt as much as i hurt now.... no pain will ever touch me again no heartbreak no nothing will ever hurt me again

every time i think of you it makes me sick no sleep will come cause nightmares fill my every dream i still cry out for you but your not here how do i tell you i love you when you wont listen i want you to love me but you don't not the way you use too i feel my heart sinking into that black hole yet there is nothing there to catch me i am so stressed that i find it hard to breath you told me you once loved me what made that all change i lost my soul mate my other half i am dying inside i know this now you not loving me has torn my world apart i wish you could see how your words affected me i wish that you knew how i was feeling i feel like my heart and my insides are all being ripped out i feel like i am losing it all its not a good feeling to love some one that don't love you at all

my love life is ruined my soul is not free there is not a thing left for me... he left me here with out a good reason... no love no love will ever be for me, not the way that i want not the way i intend... no love will ever come close to what i felt inside... my true love i lost my soul mate is gone how could everything have went so wrong so many people have stated that their love was true yet here i am again with heartbreak here i am feeling blue love and lust are too different things.... i don't doubt your love you say you had... but how do you know... love can be decieving to people that think they know... i thought that love was forever and true i thought that love was everything but maybe a person never really does love... maybe love is not real i tried to change you cant change who you are... not for anyone... you cant say that you will be not who you are.... love is not that powerful .... love is nothing but a lie... don't fall for it don't ever change who you are there might have been love but then again there might have not who know who knows.... but love is not real... why didn't i get it.... i give up... sooner or later if you don't find it you will just give up like i have.... i hope that you don't i really hope that you find it cause i know how it feels to have found it then to lose it... it hurts it does more then one will ever know

that i know there is hope i know all of this that i am not giving up that i will get through this..just in time it will take a lot of time...the end for me is not just yet i have a lot of living to do as of yet...i know that i sound all sad when i write but if i don't get it out i feel like i will die inside...i almost did when he told me his love wasn't true...no wait i take that back..i did die just inside...i felt for him as i still do..my love for him is the truest of true...but no matter how much i plead no matter how much i do his love for me is just not there...i tried so hard i really did and in the end defeat was still defeat...you ask what i am going tho and i know you wish to know but nothing will ever be the same this much i know i try to be happy i try not to cry but still my heart aches deep inside i wish that he knew how i feel but no matter what i say or do he is just not there to help me get through

if i could stop the tears from falling i would if i could go back in time and warn my heart of the sadness that was about to happen i would if i could tell myself never to fall in love i would if i could tell myself that love wasn't real i would but all that would be lies all that i ever felt or i still feel would be nothing but lies so i can't tell my heart to never to love i can't tell myself that love is not real cause i felt it i know true love i know what it feels to be loved but i know what it feels like to be heartbroken if i could change the heartbroken part i would if i could go back in time and tell my heart to not fall in love i don't know if i could do it

the pain of last night is still to hard to believe how could he just break up with me i know he cares i know that he does but how could he tell me he didn't i tired to sleep but the dreams where not good i am trying not to cry but the tears wont stop i feel worse then i ever felt before i feel like my heart is still there but that it is broken i don't want it ever to be fixed how can i be hurting this much i feel like giving up on everything my whole world is crashing down around me and there is nothing that i can do to stop it i think that this might have cause me to lose it i don't want to start over i don't want to move on i don't want to be happy with out him i want to just go away i want to just fade away into the darkness

if i could hurt less then i do now i would trade anything in the world for just a small smile i would love to be able to laugh like i use to i would give up all for him to tell me he loves me but my love for him is not the same as he has for me i am not special i am nothing i am not the person that i should be now i am broken and i don't want to be fixed i don't want to live with the emptyness from the one that i miss i don't want to live with out him by my side

why didn't you listen when i told you i love you why didn't you take notice that i was not ok do i mean that little to you that you just don't care i love you i cried more then my fair share i want to stop crying but the tears wont stop i want to wake up and it all just be a bad dream i want all the tears to stop falling i want this to never have happened i want you to love me as i love you but you don't you use to but not anymore your feelings changed you slammed that one open door you took that one thing that you promised never to hurt and smashed it you held the key to my heart and you knew it but still that didn't matter you hurt me more then anyone before and you know it i want to say i don't care i want to say i don't love you i want to scream and shout i want to yell at you for the way i am hurting right now but i can't i can't tell you i don't care about you cause i do i can't tell you i don't love you cause i do i can't scream and shout cause you wouldn't hear i can't yell at you for how much i am hurting cause you already know i want to stop writing my feeling down i want to stop but i can't i need to tell you even though you already know