backthen's blog: "heartbreak... strike out again"

yeah!!! im single again. this time no young girls. need someone who is more mature. someone who can go to the bar. im starting to feel beter now and when i get drunk again all will be forgotten. p.s. o yeah on a good note. i weighed myself the other day and i weighed 212 pounds i havent weighed that much in years.

y do i even try. i liked this newest one so much. jamie. its beter to have luved and lost... fuck that shit. things were goin to good. i hadnt told much of u that i had a girl friend. thats because we were young in our relationship so i wanted to wait untill it had been a while to say. we made it just 11 days. now im fuckin depressed. i thought i finally had some good luck. for those who dont know this last year has been so fucked up for me. i still cant find a job. then i find a girl that is awesome. i like her alot and she just breaks up with me. for no reasen. she just wanted to. i cant handle this im goin to go insane. i havent had a beer since i was in yakima last. smokes r hard to get. no money at all. i even borrowed my moms bike and rode 8 miles on a free way to see her. i guess i cant do anything right. my next probation meatings comming up. i think jail would be a good bet for me at this time. just time to sit back and not worry about anything. i found someone else b4 that but there were issues there that she needed to take care of. ligitimate ones. but no room for me for a long time. so i failed in that to. i just cant win i fail at everything. i dought most of u care about this. i know some of u will but i think the majority of u probilly think i shouldnt be with anyone anyway. i just dotn know what to do. im goin insane. couldnt get it done in yakima. cant seem to get it done in marysville. she fuckin took a picture of us and then put it as her profile pic. two days later just up and leave me...